09-9-2009 - Feel like SCREAMING!

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

I feel like screaming! It seems like it is impossible to ever get all the cleaning caught up in my house. My fiance quit helping with anything at all when Hudson was born. When we first met, he impressed me so much because he was so OCD about the house being neat and clean. Well it is safe to say that I have spoiled him. It is like having 2 children and then when you throw in the 3 dogs, I am constantly cleaning. The past couple of nights I have even dreamed about cleaning. I don't know what to do. I am not asking for him to come home and immediately start cleaning, but it would be nice if he would just pick up after himself. Apparently he is re-decorating our home with dirty clothes. They are everywhere, I just wish he would pick one spot to leave them, the laundary room would be nice.Then to top everything, I went in the nursery today and noticed it is smelling like pee. Which I found strange because we put all the diapers in a diaper genie. Correction, I put them in the diaper genie, apparently when he changes Hudson at night he has been piling them up in the corner of the crib. Gross! I am glad I am going to have time to calm down before he gets home. He is driving me crazy! I don't want to be a bitch but I can't take much more. I am sick of collecting cups with milk, dirty towels, picking up his shoes, taking out all the garbage. I just want some help.

It might not be as bad, but I can't get caught up because Hudson doesn't sleep during the day at all anymore. When he is awake he wants to be held at all times. I haven't even had anything to eat or drink yet today (it's 2:15 pm) because I can't find time. No wonder I am losing weight so fast.