tuesday june 3rd

I knew the b/s was not over! a week after my last blog my baby had to go back to the hospital! he was a cry baby for a reason! he had a hernia! his intestines had fallen down into his little scrotum and had twisted his testicle abd cut off its blood supply :( poor baby. he had surgery and is better now. still a bit of a cry baby but oh well. Me and dad are trying to work things out, hopefully we work it out. i am getting both the boys names tattooed 2night that should be fun. well talk to you all later. i am typing with 1 hand and holding/feeding with the other

friday may 16th 2008

hello everyone and thanks for stopping by.i have been checking on some of you on here and am glad that your babies/pregnancies are all doing good!we actually are in the process of trying again...well kinda...one day we are the next he wants me on birthcontrol...lol...we have a severe cry baby on our hands! i am not used to this.my first son NEVER cried....all this one does is cry!i think that i deal with it a little better than him...he already has bad nerves...plus i'm MOMMY i can fix anything...but in all honesty he is a cry baby. Because i am mommy i figured out the problem, it was his bottles.he had a belly full of air and it must have been killing him! so i switched to playtex with liners and boy what a difference he doest cry all day and night. Yea for me i figured out the problem, but isnt that what mommies do :) oh yea and i was using those expensive ass dr.browns you know the ones that promote reduces colic and air?!?!?!? WTF i almost wanna call the company and get all my money back,those bottles are like 15$ for a set and i have the preemie 2oz and the 4oz ones. well anyway guys just wanted to let everyone know that we are all doing good...there have been a few issues in out relationship and they are very major...not sure if we are going to make it or not but anyway my focus is my boys, school and work. thank you for all the support ladies I LOVE YOU ALL you guys are the only ones that undersand and have been there. THANK YOU xoxoxoxo MEGAN

5-4-08 GOD HAD A BLESSING WITH MY BABIES NAME ON IT!

just when you think everything is going great things take a turn! if you read the story below then you know that i went thru hell to get this baby here and thank the lord he WAS fine. so we get him home and he is home for exactly 4weeks and then he starts acting strange, not eating not sleeping for a whole day! we take him to the emergency and they dont know what is wrong either. his white blood cell count was very low and some other blood tests were out of wack. they did a spinal tap on him and admitted us. well 24hrs later we find out that he has bacterial meningitis! i thought that i was going to die. he got it because i was group b strep positive and did bot get the antibiotics efore i delivered! devistation was not even the word for what i felt! they told me there was a big possibility that he may die! me and my mom being nurses wanted he transfered to a hospital where there was a PICU...first the dr said no...then we got him to say yes and the insurance company said no! i completly understand the movie john q now! i was ready to kill! it seemed like no one cared about my babies life...he could have stroked or seized and any moment and we were at a hospital that had a very small peds unit mostly kids with bad cold. they also had never had this happen before an 8 week premature baby who was only 6weeks old @ the time with the worst form of meningitis! well he never got transfered because the other hospitals with PICU said that he was not sick enough! imagine that! well anyway we spent 3 long weeks in the hospital with lots of ups...downs...and tears!it did bring me and my boyfriend closer and we did not argue the whole time wich we usually do all the time.it was hard on our family we have a 5yr old that was very upset we had to find people to come stay at our house at night so we could go spend the night with the baby and see the md in the morning.i am not a peds nurse but i sure learned a lot about it being in that unit. well all in all the baby is home.some of his labs were still off when the doctor sent us home but he said he had done all they can do for him. there was a 10%chance of relapse within the first 7days but he didnt relapse so that is great! there are some things that might come about in the future like hearing and vision and learning problems and possible cerebal palsy. but for now i am happy that he is alive and home with his family.

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KWAME JR. IS HERE!

FEB 23,2008 @ 8:22PM

3LBS 10OZ 17 1/2 INCHES (8WEEKS EARLY)

ORIGINAL DUE DATE APRIL 15,2008

HE CAME 8WEEKS EARLY BUT I AM SO HAPPY THAT HE IS ALIVE AND WELL AND SO AM I. I SAY THIS BECAUSE I ALMOST DIED AND HE WOULD HAVE TO HERE IS THE STORY

LETS GO BACK TO JANUARY...I HAD GOT A COLD IN THE BEGINING OF THE MONTH...THEN AROUND THE 23RD I FELL AND SPRAINED MY PELVIC BONE.THAT WAS VERY VERY PAINFUL! AND THEN I GOT ANOTHER COLD! WORSE THAN THE FIRST ONE. SO NOW I HAVE HAD TO COLDS BACK TO BACK. OH AND DID I MENTION THAT ME AND MY BOYFRIEND HAD BEEN FIGHTING! IT WAS SO BAD THAT MY BLOOD PRESSURE GOT HIGH AND THE GAVE ME MEDICINE FOR (I NEVER TOOK IT AND I WILL REGRET IT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!) I HAD HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE WITH MY SON AND HAD HIM AT 35 WEEKS. BUT I FELT THAT I DID NOT NEED THE MEDICINE THAT IF I DID NOT STRESS I WOULD BE OK. OK SO NOW WE ARE IN FEBRUARY...STILL FIGHTING...STILL HAVE A COLD AND JUST FEELING CRAPPY! JUST AN FYI WHEN YOU HAVE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE (BP) YOU GET A BAD HEADACHE AND SEVERE SWELLING. SO I WAS WATCHING AND WAITING FOR THE HEADACHE AND THE SWELLING AND IT NEVER CAME SO I THOUGHT THAT MY BP WAS OK. BUT I DID HAVE SEVERE BODY ACHES STARTING AROUND THE WEEK OF VALENTINES I WOULD TAKE UP TO 10-15 BATHS AND SHOWERS A DAY BECAUSE THE PAIN WAS SO BAD I MEAN SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BAD I DONT WISH THAT KIND OF PAIN ON MY WORST ENEMY! I FELT LIKE SOMEONE WAS PULLING MY SPINE OUT FROM BETWEEN MY SHOULDERS I WOULD JUST SIT AND CRY. I COULD NOT KEEP DOWN ANY FOOD AND I COULD NOT SLEEP FOR MORE THAT 30MIN @ A TIME. THEN I STARTED FEELING LIKE I COULD NOT CATCH MY BREATH AND I FELT LIKE I WAS HAVING A HEART ATTACK. MY HEART WAS MAJORLY SKIPPING BEATS! THIS DID NOT HAPPEN FAST IT TOOK ABOUT 2 WEEKS. DURING THIS TIME I HAD BEEN TALKING TO MY FRIEND WHO WAS ALSO PREGNANT AND 2 WEEKS AHEAD OF ME...SHE SAID HER BODY WAS HURTING AS WELL. WE BOTH WERE THINKING WE WERE GETTING SICK AGAIN!OR THAT WE WERE SO BIG AND THAT IS WHERE THE BODY PAIN WAS CUMMIN FROM. SHE WENT TO THE DOCTOR ON THE THURSDAY 2/21 AND HER BP WAS REALLY HIGH SO THEY DID AN EMERGENCY C-SECTION. I TALKED TO HER FRIDAY MORNING AND SHE TOLD ME THAT I SHOULD GO TO THE DOCTOR BECAUSE ALL THE BODY PAIN WAS FROM HER BP. I SAID WELL I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT OF MONDAY 2/25. I DID NOT WANT TO OVER REACT MY BOYFRIEND IS ALWAYS SAYING THAT I AM A HYPOCHONDRIAC SO I DID NOT WANT TO MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING. BUT I WAS HAVING MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF PAIN. I WAS CRAWLING THROUGH THE HOUSE...LAYING ON THE SHOWER FLOOR WITH THE WATER ON AS HOT AS I COULD GET IT. FINALLY ON SATURDAY 2/23 AROUND 5PM I CALLED MY DOCTOR. I TOLD HER I WAS HAVING BODY PAIN AND CHEST PAIN. SHE TOLD ME TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL. I TOLD MY BOYFRIEND TO STAY HOME WITH MY SON BECAUSE THERE WAS PROBABLY NOTHING WRONG SO HE DID NOT NEED TO COME. WHEN I GOT TO THE HOSPITAL EVERYTHING HAPPENED SO FAST! THEY TOOK MY BP IT WAS DEADLY 190/120 NORMAL IS 120/80 THE BOTTOM # IS THE IMPORTANT ONE. IT SHOULD NOT BE OVER 80. THEY COULD NOT START AN IV ON ME BECAUSE HIGH BP MAKES YOUR VEINS CONSTRICT. AND MY PAIN WAS A 20 ON A SCALE OF 10. I HAD TO CALL MY PARENTS TO GO GET MY SON AND MY BOYFRIEND TO COME TO THE HOSPITAL THEY SAID THAT I WAS GONNA HAVE TO STAY AND GET SOME MEDICINE. BY THE TIME THAT HE GOT THERE THEY WERE TAKING ME FOR AN EMERGENCY C-SECTION...MY BLOOD CAME BACK AND IT SHOWED THAT I HAD A SYNDROME CALLED HELLP SYNDROME. BASICALLY YOUR RED BLOOD CELLS START BREAKING DOWN (AND THAT CAUSES THE BODY PAIN) YOUR LIVER EXPANDS AND PUSHES YOUR LUNGS, HEART STOMACH AND BABY (RESON FOR THE CHEST PAIN AND SHORTNESS OF BREATH) AND YOUR PLATELETS IN YOUR BLOOD START GOING DOWN(THAT CAN MAKE THE PLACENTA PULL AWAY FROM THE UTERUS). SO I WAS VERY SICK. THE DOCTOR ASKED WHY I HAD NOT CALLED HER BEFORE...I TOLD HER I WAS TRYING TO WAIT FOR MY APPOINTMENT ON MONDAY. SHE SAID THAT FROM MY BLOOD WORK I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE DIED THAT NIGHT! SHE ALSO TOLD ME I CAN NOT HAVE ANYMORE BABIES THAT I WILL GET THE SYNDROME AGAIN AND HAVE THE BABY EVEN EALIER THAT THIS ONE. WE STILL WANT ONE MORE SO I AM GOING TO GO SEE A HIGH RISK SPECIALIST WHEN THAT TIME COMES. BUT ANYWAY THE BABY WAS BORN AT 8:33PM 3LB 10 OZ 16 INCHES. I WAS IN ICU FOR 3 DAYS AND WAS PRETTY MUCH ASLEEP THRU ALL THAT I HAD A MORHINE PUMP AND WAS GETTING A LOT OF BLOOD AND PLATELETS TRANSFUSED AND NUMEROUS MEDICATIONS. THE BABY WAS IN THE NICU. I WAS THERE FOR 2 WEEKS AND CAME HOME THE DAY OF THE BABY SHOWER 3/8 THE DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY. IT WAS THE BEST BIRTHDAY OF MY LIFE. THE BABY HAD NO MEDICAL PROBLEMS HE JUST HAD TO LEARN HOW TO EAT. BABIES DO NOT START TO SUCK/SWALLOW UNTIL 34 WEEKS GESTATION. I WAS ONLY 32 WEEKS SO HE HAD A FEEDING TUBE AND AT 33 WEEKS THE SLOWLY STARTED GIVING HIM BOTTLES. I THANK GOD THAT THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE WORNG WITH HIM BECAUSE THERE COULD HAVE BEEN. I HAVE NOW BEEN BLESSED WITH 2 HEALTHY PREEMIE BABIES.

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HELLO ALL...WELL THIS IS MY SECOND CHILD. IT WILL BE HIS FIRST.I HAVE A 4.5YR OLD SON NAMED JADEN. AND THEY THINK THAT THIS ONE IS A BOY AS WELL. :(

ITHOUGHT THAT I DIDN'T CARE BUT A LIL GIRL WOULD BE NICE. I WILL BE THE ONLY GIRL IN THE HOUSE! OH WELL I LOVE HAVING A BOY...BOYS LOVE THEIR MOMMIES!

I WAS REALLY SICK IN THE FIRST 12WEEKS. BUT I DON'T GET AS SICK ANYMORE. NOW I AM JUST REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE! HAD A C-SECTION WITH MY SON SO I THINK THAT IS WHAT IS HURTING. THIS PREGNANCY HAS BEEN PRETTY UNEVENTFUL SO FAR. HAD SOME BLEEDING AND CLOTTING @ 8/9 WEEKS. BUT EVERYTHING WAS OK. THAT WAS A SCARE! HOPING TO JUST COAST ALL THE WAY TO THE END.

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11/17

havn't really been into the journaling thing,but now i guess i will. I am like 18 weeks or something like that. U/S on thursay put me @ 19.3. We had a big scare this week. I had a positive afp test for neural tube defect. I was so sick!!! but the good part was having the 4d us. omg if you other mommies can afford it i totally recomend it!! it was great,i was every lil feature of him.

I am still getting sick every so often but not like i did w/my first son! I know that i am sooooo tired of peeing! OH AND IT'S A BOY

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11/21

OH MY GOD I AM IN SOOOOOOO MUCH PAIN IN MY PRIVATE AREA TODAY I CANT EVEN LIFT MY LEGS TO PUT ON PANTS. THE PEEING GET BETTER AND THEN IT COMES BACK! HEART BURN KICKED IN MAJOR LAST NIGHT...I ATE A TON OF TUMS AND THEN BARFED MY BRAINS OUT! THE NAUSEA STOPPED @ 13 WEEKS BUT I STILL BARF ALL THE TIME...SAME AS I DID W/MY SON BUT I HAD THE NAUSEA ALL DAY! I AM HAPPY THAT A AM 20 WEEKS AND HAVE ONLY GAINED 6LBS

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11-27-07

not to much to really talk about this week, i have a terrible pain in my right butt cheek that shoots down my legs. I am still having migranes. The perinatologist sent me some of the 4d u/s pics in the mail...that was nice...i was able to show my boyfriend since he was not there for the u/s. My mom and i think that he looks just like his daddy but, my boyfriend does not think so.

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12-2-07

well it's just another uneventful day for our household. it was kwames 30th birthday on sat. he had a party at a local bar/club on fri night...he originally had it for his actual birthday (sat) but i was not having it. i cant go to any club or bar and i will be damnd' if he did not spend the actual day with me. it was an emotional week for me leading up to the actual birthday....mostly hormones and feeling left out...and that i could not give him a good time like his friends could because i cant frink and party. but we actually had a really relaxing day for his birthday. i guess due to the fact that he had a hang over and had the flu during the week. I must admit i give him hell, sometimes he deserves it, but most of the time he doesnt. I love him so much. my first pregnancy i did all alone and it is so different having someone there for you. well gonna go back abd lay on the couch.

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12-31-07

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! Today is New Years Eve...and i a, a little sad about it. BF wants to go to Las Vegas :( i want to go...but he does not believe that me going out is a good idea...being pregnant and all. But I guess it's ok...I will let him party for now cuz he is going to be the primary care-taker. I am a full time student and I work. He works to, but between school and work, i will be gone a lot.

well i am 26 weeks now and i am tired. i want to lay on my stomach so bad, and i dont like being a slow mover, and the belly is making me one.

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sunday jan 13th,2008

I am sooooo tired of being pregnant. I finally took a pic of myself and i look horrible! i am sooo ugly and fat. My blood pressure has been getting kinda up there and that makes me sad. I had to have an emergency c-section because of high blood pressure with my son...so i am praying and trying to keep it low. My boyfriend and I have been having some issues...well we always have actually...he has a little problem being faithful...I THINK....i have no proof but I am almost 100%sure that he is and it is killing me.sometimes i think that i am just paranoid because my first sons father had 3 girls pregnant all at once and is still having them. It is hard for me to have someone involved in the pregnancy and trying to be there. He is not the most supportive becuase he is not really a caring sensitive person. He tries but....well it just isnt always want i want. He is not sensitive to any of my needs...i need a foot rub so bad! and a back rub, but oh well. Well the count down begins now i think i am like 28 weeks or summin like that...i kinda lost track.

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1-30-08

OK WHEN IT RAINS IT POURS....I HAVE HAD A COLD FOR 3 WEEKS NOW....MY BOYFRIEND AND I HAD A FIGHT AND MY PELVIC BONE IS SPRAINED OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT...ALL I KNOW IS THAT IS HURTS LIKE HELL!!! I CAN WALK...MOVE...ROLL OVER IN BED...NOTHING! I HAD TO STOP WORKING....I GO TO SCHOOL M/W/FRI AND DURING ALL THIS MY BOYFRIEND WRECKED OUR CAR AND MY RENT WENT UP! I AMMMMM SOOOOOOOOO STREEEEESSSSSED! I THINK THAT HE IS CHEATING ON ME WITH A LITTLE 21YR OLD GIRL AND IT IS KILLING ME! I WAS ABLE TO KICK MY FORST BABY DADDY OUT SO I HOPE HE DOESNT THINK THAT IT WILL BE THAT HARD A 2ND TIME. BUT ANYWAY THE LIL MAN IS FINE...MOVES AROUND A LOT....APRIL 15TH CANT COME SOON ENOUGHT. I WAS A LARGER SIZE WOMAN BEFORE 190LBS @ 5'3" I HAVE ONLY GAIND 7LBS...DOCTOR DOES NOT LIKE IT...BUT I AM DO EAT....I AM NOT STARVING MYSELF...BUT I THINK BECAUSE OF STRESS I AM NOT THAT HUNGRY. WELL ALL I CAN DO IS PRAY...I FEEL SO SAD A GIRL I KNOW HAD HER BABY AND HE PASSED AWAY...THEN SOME OF THE PROFILES THAT I READ TODAY THE WOMEN THAT HAD BABIES THAT PASSED AWAY @ A FEW DAYS OLD...IT HAS ME SOOOO NERVOUS NOW! WELL I KNOW THAT GOD WALKS WITH ME SO ALL I CAN DO IS PARY AND HAVE FAITH!

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2-14-08 <3 <3 <3

happy valentine's day everyone...i hope everyone's spouse treats them extra special today. well i am somewhere like 31-32 weeks it is getting painful to walk...i don't understand how when i have only gained 10lbs but whatever. Well i thought that my baby was cheating on me...but after playing major inspector gaget he is not....thank GOD! we went on out maternity tour of the hospital last night...BORRRRRIIINNNGGGG plus i work @ the hospital so i already knew...but really i did it for him. WE have a baby basics class this saturday...once again another class for him...i have done this once before. I am also doing it because his sister just had her first baby and i think that she thinks that she is master mom now or something...she makes a lot of comments that i really dont appreciate sometimes. My mom hates it that i keep my mouth closed when it comes to her comments...but i do not like to fight. PLus his sister is just like him...you cant tell them anything! they know it ALL! but anyway i am taking him to the baby basics class that is taught my a pediatrician so that he can get a ground base for things. Then he can watch me...which is what he had said he wanted @ first...he said that i could just show him. But i know that when his sister and his mom come around that they might say to do something different...and he will think i am doing it wrong...like i just went and pulled my 5yr old out of a flippin shoe box or something...but anyway...he can go to the class...then watch me...and then listen to him mom and sister and choose which ways will be easiest for HIM! oh and by the way me his mom and sister get a long fine...i dont want any people on here getting the wrong idea. I love him mom and sister...u just know that they will have their input as well. Well anyway i feel good most of the time...I have started trowing up again...actually it is barfing! yuck...maybe i am eating to much or something when i do eat...i dont know but i get really queezy after i eat. other than that all is well. WE are going to take our maternity pictures today so i will post them after we get them. take care everyone!