16-7-2008 - food? ugh.

My mood while writing this blog: hungry & full

so, today was the first morning that i literally had zero control over my body. i fried 2 eggs and sliced up a little avocado for breakfast, and sat down at the kitchen table to enjoy it. it looked good, it smelled good, i ate the first bite and strangely, it didn't taste good. i tried another and felt my stomach lurch a little. ugh. since i'm trying so hard to control my reactions to stuff like this, i start coaxing myself to take another bite, get it down, and move onto the next thing in my day. so i take one more bite and UH-OH! up it came. i lost all my breakfast and am not sure i'll ever cook myself eggs again. however, my great dane, bitsy, seemed very entertained by the whole show, and especially enjoyed the eggs and avocado she got for breakfast instead of kibble.

the most difficult part of my stomach these days is that i am actually hungry, but i can't seem to find many things that actually taste good without making me sick! this morning i pulled into starbucks on my way to work and figured i'd try a breakfast sandwich, that way the eggs would be hidden by the cheese, meat, and bread. while i was waiting in the drive thru, the smell of coffee wafted out into my car and UH-OH! almost lost it all over again! i LOVE coffee! what the heck???? however, this story does have a good ending, as i was able to enjoy the breakfast sandwich and sucked down a herbal passion fruit iced tea as well.

is anyone else feeling starving, but can't eat???