06-8-2008 - scary day

My mood while writing this blog: relieved

tuesday night i was sitting at my desk finishing up my day and decided to run to the bathroom. i thought i had to pee, but couldn't. so, i wiped, but when i looked at it i was horrified to see bright red blood on the toilet paper. i instantly panicked and started to cry, thinking i was absolutely going to have a miscarriage. i grabbed my cell phone and dialed my OB, but unfortunately, at 4:15 her office was closed. i got the # for her answering service, called and left a message with them, and thankfully, received a call from my doctor within 10 minutes. i told her i was 10 weeks along and had bright red blood, with no cramping. she told me to meet her at her office right away. so i hopped in my car and sped down, all the way trying to breathe deeply, relax, and not stress myself out. i'm not sure how well it worked. when i arrived at her office, she rushed me in and did a quick internal exam, and found everything to be in place, and healthy. then she did an external (yay!) ultrasound and found my little baby's heart beating away with no problems! i was so relieved! we watched it for a couple minutes, both exhaling and relaxing with every beat. finally, she cleaned the ultrasound goop off of me and explained that sometimes these things just happen, even in healthy pregnancies. she put me on pelvic rest, which means no sex (sorry, hubs), and wants me to lay down and relax every chance i get. my next appointment is in 2 weeks and i can't wait to see my little bean and spend more time watching, measuring, and getting more pictures! i am so, so, so releived that everything is okay. yesterday i stayed home from work and laid either in bed or on the couch all day, trying to relax and re-coup. today i feel good! no more cramping, no bleeding! i haven't bled at all since the one time, which i am so thankful for! i can still feel my pregnancy hormones raging away, boobs are bursting with pain, dizzy, exhausted, congested, and even had to throw my breakfast away this morning because the eggs tasted too salty... i was so happy to do it though! if i was feeling 100% perfect this morning it would probably have scared me, so i'm glad for all my reassuring "symptoms"!

anyways, i just want everybody out there who has had a little bleeding to know that i made it through. just because you have a little blood doesn't mean that you are 100% going to miscarry. so don't stress yourself out! :)

oh by the way... for all you who are sick of eating eggs but still need protein in the morning, i found this natural-ish (i can pronouce all the ingredients) shake mix at Babies-R-Us called "Angel Milk". You mix 2 scoops of either strawberry or chocolate powder in your ice cold milk and for only like 120 calories you get a quick breakfast full of vitamins, protein, with a little carbs and sugar! this has been working out really well for me in the morning, or for a mid-afternoon snack! i bought the tin that makes 50 shakes or so, but also got some individual packets to throw in my purse for an emergency! i wonder if starbucks would blend one up for me?! just thought i'd pass it on!