15-5-2009 - UPDATE!!!.... stepson, baby name(?), and boobies!

My mood while writing this blog: Superwoman

Okkk soo i guess maybe some of you are wondering why ive been moderately scarce on here the past few days... Omars son is here from florida and we've been spending time with him. And its been great, ill get to that after the small stuff. I'll post pics of us and all that soon i promise. Ok so baby name... i think... just maybe... we might have agreed. Im going to put up a poll on it and see what everyone thinks. Pllleeaasse participate. Everyone likes our middle name we picked (Michelle) and so far everyone has liked the first name we picked, ill tell you that in a minute, except we're not sure on the "flow" of it. Like if the sound good together. We're also not quite sure on the spelling... *drumroll please* .............. So the name we think we've decided on, either spelling, you can vote on my poll which looks better....

Mikayla Michelle Carballo..... OR...

McKayla Michelle Carballo

So... What you all think?! I think i like the McKayla spelling better... very Irish. And i guess it sounds a little spanish-y? lol. At first the flow thing sounded like an issue but after saying it a few times it sounds good. Original. Different. I think i like it. I think i love it. But pllleeeeeeeeeease... i beg you... be honest. If you like it but think the flow is bad...lemme know. If you love it, do tell.

But anywhoo, on to the next matter. Boobies. haha. Ok if you dont want too much boob tmi, skip this paragraph. So today before i was going to take a shower... i was ya kno doing the inspection checkin out the tummy lookin in the mirror scopin the boobage, ya kno... the usual. And it looked like i had a droplet of water on my nipple.... but then i realized... hey... there is no water that couldve gotten on there... Then it hit me... Leakage(?) So... i kno this sounds totally wierd... but i wiped it away and squeezed it... and another 3 teeeeency tiny droplets in like a triangle shape appeared. I was like whoooaaa.... so then i did it on the other side... and more! One side seems to have a bit more, but im not leaking it was just a small shine like a tiny droplet. Only when i squeezed did more come out. I was like hehe colostrum. And the funny thing, it didnt bother me. I kind of got excited. I felt like superwoman. Like "hey i can feed my daughter... im amazing." it made me smile lol. And the nips are gettin darker... and i think bigger(?) and my boobs have definately increased in size. And i think one is growing faster than the other... hope the other one catches up lol. But yea thats all on the booby situation lol.

So James(Omars son) has been here a few days. Its been great. And he loves me! Hes such an improvement since last time(about a year ago he was screaming and fussy and crying and whiney... just a terror. Poor little guy) he was 2 then, now hes 3 and he was great. And if i doubted my ability to be a mother before at all... thats toootttaallllyy gone now. I just took to this "maternal instinct" type thing. It was crazy. I got peed on, thrown up on, took a million potty trips, along with a million and one hand washes, cooked and fed dinner, carried him around, held his hand in the store and crossing the street and at the zoo, cleaned his face... cheered him up, washed his icky clothes..... and a bunch more. I felt so useful. And i didnt do it cause i had too, i just did it. And i do love the little guy too. I mean i was like whoa... maybe i can do this. And omar told me how special it was to him and how much it meant that i was treating his son so well and that his son loved me. He said "if you treat my son so good and take care of him so well, i cant wait to see how amazing you are with our daughter" It made me so happy. Ill definately post pics from our outings and stuff soon.

Well thats about it guys... Love you all! Lemme know about the baby name!