07-6-2008 - My love for my child

My mood while writing this blog: emotional

I was just thinking how much I love my baby that I have yet to hold. To never have intended to have a child in my younger years and to now be having one, I am just so blown away. I want her so much. She is going to be so loved. She already is! I think most parents want to give their child what they wish they had had and didnt and I am the same. I want to make her feel so special. I want her to know that she is loved and she matters alot. I dont want to spoil her in a bad way, but I do want to be an incredible Mom.

I am feeling pretty good still. Up 25 lbs now. I know I really need to get in the groove and excercize and eat better before I regret it. I dont usually eat fast food besides taco bell bean burritos but after work today I stopped at Carls for my favorite six dollar burger (Mmmmmmm) then to Arbys for curly fries and mozzeralla sticks, then to Dairy Queen for a blizzard for my hubby. It was his fault, he sent me to all those places, I'm serious:) So good to be so bad once in a blue moon. Delish! I watched John Cusacks new film "Grace is gone" last night and bawled my eyes out, lol. I wonder if I would have cried if I wasnt preggo? Movies and TV make me cry alot these days, Its funny.

Brads African Grey parrot is going "blah blah blah" lol. Shes hilarious. Pretty soon she'll be crying like a baby, imagine how much I look forward to that one, ha ha! Now shes barking like a dog.

Yesterday I went to go to the bathroom and felt like the baby was going to come out in the toilet at the same time. It was weird, maybe it was a contraction? I cold then imagine what labor feels like cause I think that was a sample.

Not worrying about labor anymore, yay! Just trusting God that it's going to work out. I'm relaxed now, amazing. What an awesome God!