Since I lost my job in May, things have been really hard. I got fired because they said I couldn't do the requirments of the job because I wasn't fast enough. I wasn't fast enough because of being pregnant. They even asked me if I was slow because i was pregnant.

We have a 22 month old that we took out of daycare and I have been staying home with her during the day while looking for a job on the internet day after frickin day and not even getting a call back. I got one call back and it was for an LPN in mother/baby at a hospital 2 minutes from my house. I was thrilled! The interview went great. I had a job shadow the next week and was there for 8 hours. I loved it! It's what I have wanted my entire life. Of course, I was also 6 months pregnant. They didn't say anything about it. It's been over 2 months and I haven't heard back. The website still has me listed as "interviewing" for the position. They did tell me it takes a while to process things with their HR dept.

I am currently getting unemployment but it is very very little. My husband is working full time. Our house payment (I got fired 3 months after we moved into our newly built home) is $1700/month. We also have tons of other bills. We DO NOT qualify for food stamps. They said on our income we have to have 10 people living in our household. Really?! I mean really?! They didn't take any of our bills into consideration. I did get WIC for myself but for some reason, I couldn't get it for my 2 year old. We are on a $75/week budget and that is for groceries, house hold items, toiletries, diapers, cat food, cat litter, etc. It's so frickin hard! I want to cry every time I make the walmart list because I have to try to figure out how to keep it at that while attempting to make healthy dinners and still be able to get breakfast items and lunch items for my daughter and I while we are at home during the day. I feel like such a horrible mom/wife because I can't make the healthy stuff we need right now. My little girl is also going through about a pack and a half to 2 packs of diapers per week. I can't use store brand diapers on her because she claws herself so much with them. I've tried to start potty training her (just bought a pack of pull ups today) but she won't go on her potty. She will sit on it but won't go and then as soon as she gets up, she will go in her pull up/diaper. We have come a long way with getting her to sit on her potty. The past 2 months, she would shake her head and say no just trying to get her to sit on it even with clothes on. If we picked her up and tried to sit her on it, she freaks out and hovers her legs and cries. Now at least she will sit on it without a diaper.

I really don't know what to do anymore. There is still things we need for this baby such as a baby bath sponge thing for her to lay on while in the bath instead of the hard tub, diapers and wipes for her, extra crib sheets, a changing pad for her changing table, and I need stuff like pads for after birth and I need travel stuff to take with me to the hospital. Our 2 year old also is in need of clothes. She has stuff to get her through this summer but has no winter stuff and beyond. She has also out grown her shoes. She has one pair of shoes that she can wear and they are sandles. She is 22 months old and in a size 6. Is this normal?

I have done nothing but cry for the past hour and a half. I really have no idea what to do. I pray every day for things to get better and I'm just so worried that they won't any time soon.