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| 06-10-2009 - 3 Weeks & 1 Day Old |
My mood while writing this blog: Happy Today! |
Hi everyone
How are you all? We are all good today. We are still having up and down days. Yesterday I took Joshua to Doncaster on a shopping trip with my friend and her baby. It's about an hour away from us and it was a nice day but I had a panic attack while I was there and then it carried on all through the evening, I sat crying to Steve all night last night just worrying about Joshua. He is absolutely fine but some days I just thiknk something terrible is going to happen to him or he's going to get poorly and I'm not going to be able to cope. I don't know why I have these days as I'm coping brilliantly, they really upset me and I hate feeling like it.
Today has been completely different, I have been out and about with Joshua all day and I haven't felt panicky at all! I am hoping it is still my hormones settling down.
My poor little niece who is only 2 has been in hospital again with croup, she always suffers with it and over the weekend before she got poorly she was kissing Joshua on his face so last night I got myself in a state thinking that Joshua was going to catch it. My little niece got it first time when she was 6 months old and she nearly died so if Joshua got it this young I dread to think what could happen. He seems fine but it's at the back of my mind all the time.
I just love him soooo much I can't imagine life without him and don't want anything horrible to happen to him. I'm sure all new mothers go through this but at the time you feel like you are going to crack up and over protect your baby. Every little noise he made yesterday had me in a panic but today I have been completely different!
The healthy visitor came today and she said he is doing really well. I can't wait to see how much he weighs again on Thursday. He is very greedy, he is on about 35 - 37 oz a day in total. The health visitor told me today if he's still sucking after a 5 oz bottle (which he is) then make up 6 oz! So that is what I did earlier and he's been asleep for the last 4 hours which is great as he only usually sleeps for 2.5 - 3 hours in the day. At night he goes 3 - 3.5 hours at a time so I'm hoping tonight if he has 6 oz he will sleep for longer periods and then I won't have to get up as many times.
I've been shopping today and bought myself loads of new clothes, I still have 13 lbs to lose to get back to my pre pregnancy weight but I wanted to treat myself so I can't wait for Steve to get home so I can go and try them all on!
Ok that's about all I have to say for now, Joshua is getting very chubby, I will put some pics up again soon so you can see how much he is changing.
We are going to a baby group in the morning which we're both looking forward to!
Lots of love from mummy Hudson and Joshua piglet xx
9 Comments on 3 Weeks & 1 Day Oldready4mygirl -
Tuesday, 6 Oct Oh sweetie... I am sorry that you are feeling panicky. These feelings are normal (almost every mother worries about her baby). All new mommies love their babies so much that they fear the worst... they hear horror stories and fear that it will happen to their babies as well. Try not to let your fear overwelm you. Your concerns just means that you are a good mommy. Baby Joshua is very lucky to have such a great family. :) babyl -
Tuesday, 6 Oct You are so normal to feel all those things. Anna Catherine slept in our room ( in her bassinet) until a month ago just so I could make sure she was breathing throughout the night. Now she is in her room and I can hear her through a monitor. You had to go through alot to get that little bundle of joy. It is ok to love him too much! Praying for you! FirstTimeMommyR -
Tuesday, 6 Oct That panicky feeling is TOTALLY normal! I remember feeling that way all the time when Eric was first born. I just worried about him endlessly, and I would often get myself into a tizzy about it and cry all night long sometimes. Now that Eric is nearly one, I still live with the worry, but I can live with it without going into an utter panic about it. I don't think the worry ever goes away, but it becomes more manageable. You're doing wonderfully! Enjoy it :) jen -
Tuesday, 6 Oct So happy for you Helen. Mommyhood is very stressful, especially when they are still so small and helpless. It wil get easier, believe me, and when he falls and skins a knee, you'll be telling him, 'brush it off boy, your just fine!" lol! He looks like such a sweetie, wish I could just give him a great big hug! I found with Cody that once they start taking shorter naps after feedings, that usually means it's time to up the amount of the bottle by a half ounce or an ounce. That way they are fuller and sleep longer. You'll figure that all out in time mommy!!! wyattsmommy -
Tuesday, 6 Oct Don't worry hun its totally normal to panick and worry I think all mothers do that! Wyatt is 2 and I worry over every little thing still. DH tells me to stop babying him but I couldn't stand it if anything ever happened to him so i'm constantly trying to stay one step ahead of it all to keep him 100% safe. I've been worrying the past few months about when Owen arrives in 10wks. Because he's being born right smack in the middle of winter and flu season! And right before christmas so everybody is going to be around and want to hold him and be near him and I understand they are excited to see him but at the same time I don't want anybody to come near him as i'm deathly afraid of him getting sick he'll only be a week old 2 at the most before christmas. I've already been telling DH nobody is allowed coming around if they have a couch or a runny nose anything and everybody washes there hands before touching him. I am especially worried with the h1n1 virus going around now too I make wyatt put hand sanitizer on his hands constantly anymore. Anyhow, don't worry your doing a great job worrying and panicking I think is a part of monther hood I don't think it will ever go away! utopianite -
Tuesday, 6 Oct You're just being a good mommy. You'll go from worrying about your baby getting sick, to worrying about your baby falling down when he tries walking, and then worrying about falling off of things at the playground... :-) lilly10 -
Tuesday, 6 Oct Hi HelenPleased to hear that all is well with you and Joshua.I cant wait to seem some more pictures :)Its perfectly normal to have these panicky moments....we wouldn't be human if we where not forever panicking about them,wandering if all is ok...it happens to all of us I'm sure at one point or another.Enjoy your fashion show this evening !! I'm sure you will look FAB in your new clothes.Take care hugs x mmyof3angels -
Tuesday, 6 Oct I am soooo happy for you Helen!! Lots of love to you and baby Joshua!! honeymoon-baby -
Tuesday, 6 Oct Don't worry about the panic it's totally normal for every mother but all consuming at the time. at 10 days old i thought my milk was literally killing my daughter, that it was poisoned or something, because she had a few spots on her face and i insisted on taking her to the out of hours GP lol i also thought an earthquake was going to knock her moses basket over and i got terrified of cars literally i'd be in tears and i'd get so angry about bad drivers. It all came to ahead when the girl was stabbed in town. I went rigid in bed that evening i couldn't move or speak, my hubby thought that i was in a mood until he realised that my jaw was locked tight and i was shaking that lasted about 8 hours but since that peak it's got a lot easier and now life is back to normal. I don't think that last part was totally normal for all mothers butit was totally unusual circumstances that caused that panic, when i told my health visitor what happened she said 9 out of 10 new mums in the town had had a similar reaction as me.This is just your bodies way of forcing you to protect your child.. it's totally primal and you just have to live it out with support from your family of course, you are not abnormal. I promise it does get easier. if you start to feel depressed go to your GP but in all honesty it just sounds like it's that overwhelming motherly instinct kicking in. You're a strong woman Helen and a great mummy, remember this reaction is because you love him so much, it's quite a compliment to your dedication and love to your precious son. Love to you all xx