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| 08-10-2009 - pregnant journal |
My mood while writing this blog: some what sad |
I WENT TO THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE FOR MY ANNUAL ONLY TO FIND OUT I'M PREGNANT YET AGAIN. I JUST HAD AN ABORTION IN MAY OF THIS YEAR AND HERE I AM AGAIN PREGNANT. I WENT ON THE PILL BECAUSE I DIDN'T WAN TO GET PREGNANT AGAIN SO WHAT HAPPEN WHERE DID I GO WRONG I HAVE THOUGHT BACK AND I NEVER MISS A PILL. I'M SO SCARED ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS THE PAIN THE BABY I CHOOSE TO ABORT NOT WANTING ANOTHER BABY BEING SINGLE AND MY AGE MY BABY BOY IS NINE YRS OLD CAN I DO THIS BE A MOTHER AGAIN NINE YRS LATER. I'M IN SCHOOL NOW I WILL HAVE TO STOP AND FINISH IN AUGUST OF 2010> I DONT WANT TO BE SELFISH THIS TIME SO THIS IS WHY I;M GOING TO KEEP THE MIRCLE GOD HAS AFFORDED ME ONCE MORE> I HOPE I DONT OFFEND ANYONE WHO HAS LOST OR TTC WITH MY DECISION TO ABORT THE FRST TIME. I PRAY EVERYDAY TO BE STRONG AND I HOPE WHO EVER READ THIS WOULD DO THE SAME AS I DO FOR ALL HERE ON THIS SITE SINCE I HAVE BEEN ON HERE. UNTIL NEXT TIME
1 Comments on pregnant journalatwine22 -
Friday, 9 Oct I know just how you feel I wasn't to thrilled this last time I got pregnant. It was completely unlanned and unexpected plus I had just had my other daughter not too long ago. I was also very fearful of what others would think of me being so young with so many children. In the end though I am very glad my daughter is herem everyday as I look at her sweet smile and innocent eyes. I can truly see now that though it was in god's plan for her to be here.I have five kids and at times it can be chaotic but my love for them motivates me. I wish you the best of luck and I know you can do it. Even when all odds were against me god provided for our every need and we made it. Bless you and your boys and that new baby...hope it is a girl:)