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mizmartinez
	Age: 25 Country: Canada Province/region: Ontairo City: Partner: mr martinez Children: Yes, 2 Pregnant: Not anymore Occupation: Stay at home mom
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22-6-2009 - emotionally exhausted

My mood while writing this blog:
mixed up

Hello ladies. This blog is about so many things, im sorry if i go on and on. So i haven't mentioned this in any of my blogs because it has not been as important as it is now. ok here is the story.... I first met my husband through facebook lol we were good friends, we were only friends because he had a girlfriend who had just found out she was pregnant!!!!! anyways my husband and her had an argument and they broke up. he moved in with his parents. she at the time was 3 months pregnant. So we started chilling together and so on then we started dating well three months after we got married. i know one big rush right. So knowing what i knew about her being pergnant it did not bother me i guess because it was not reality yet.So time went by she had her baby and i felt jealous!! but not like an evil on more of an emotional one. my husband tryed to be apart of his daughters life but she still had feelings for him and started so much drama. my husband and her did not talk for a long while until last week!!!!! ME i decided for some reason lmao that he should talk to her and get to know his daughter!! so i made things work made plans and got her to think of her daughter and blah blah. so anyways. the baby is seven months old. she lives far from my city has to tak a 3 hour bus ride to come down. she came down this past weekend. for fathers day well i guess i never expected my husband to fall in love with his daughter and so on. so this is were i need the advice. since im gonna have a baby any week now all my emotions are drving me insane. so how i felt was i loved the baby too picked her up made her laugh and so on. i just felt jealous and i hid that very well on the weekend. i kept saying to myself why did you do this and then telling myself it's for the best...... my husband talked about her all weekend tookppics put them up on facebook and everything. im happy for him i really am but i am mad at myself why i do not know. i don't want to be jealous but i can't help it. i just want my baby boy. :( i am one emotional mess!!!!!!

3 Comments on emotionally exhausted

ceandrusis - Monday, 22 Jun
I think it is wonderful that you encouraged him to meet his daughter and that he is fully interested in getting to know her and spend time with her. It is definitely best for her and she is innocent in the matter. It should make you feel good that he feels that way about her b/c it probably means he will be a good father to your son! If he had no interest in her, that would worry me, especially having a new baby on the way! I know it is hard, but it is nothing to be jealous about, and it sounds like you already know that! He is with you now and unless he does anything to make you feel that you aren't important to him or that he wants to be with someone else, I wouldn't let it bother you. Soon enough you're going to have your own little one to occupy you and I'm sure he will adore him as much as he does his daughter!

sinny - Monday, 22 Jun
that is a beautiful thing you did for his daughter and for him. Feeling the way you do is normal I would think because you are kind of the "outsider" but pretty soon your beautiful boy will be here and he will have a big sister how great is that? Your a wonderful woman for doing what you did.

Diegirl - Monday, 22 Jun
I think you did the right thing. Encouraging him to play a role in his daughter's life is huge! Kudos for that. My ex's gf wanted him to cut all ties with our kids and he did for her. Once they split he thought he could just pop back into their lives. I told him he cannot treat them like a revolving door... that he is or isn't a part of their lives.... anyhow, that is all besides the point and a whole other story. I think what you did is amazing and takes a big person. I can relate to the jealousy and I think its normal. It is hard when someone you love has a bond with someone else... past or present. Once your little Mateo is here I am sure you will feel a little better as you will have that same bond if not more so as your hubby will be by your side for everything. The birth, day one, and the rest of his life. His daughter is not so lucky and only gets a part time dad. I hope you feel better and realize what a great person you are. Your hubby married you and they are exes for a reason.

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