27-9-2008 - Life update

My mood while writing this blog: stuck

Hello all. I guess I just need to vent for a minute. I found out my son's dead beat father impregnated his idiotic girlfriend. This woman already has four kids and quit recently left her husband who supported her for Robert. Her ex pays her $1800 in spousal/child support to live and she is working as well. Robert (bd) is not working. He won't work, supposedly because he is afraid I will go after child support. Are you kidding?? You can't get blood from a turnip. So Nikki, his girl, is supporting his looser ass while he stays home and is a built babysitter. Now this disfuntional couple is going to bring another child into this world?? Not that I'm suprised but I am just really sad about it. Robert has not even met his son or inquired about him. He hasn't so much as bought a onsie or a pack of diapers. It feels though he is simply replacing my son. Like trading him in because it wasn't convienent. They are so happy, this pregnancy was not a mistake, they are hoping for a girl. How can this man keep bringing children into this world if he doesn't want to know the son he already has?? I just don't understand. On top of that, I am struggling. I have no money and just found out I'm being garnished for past medical bills. As it was, I could hardly make the bills. I bust my butt to work and support my son on my own and it feels like the government would rather I just live off welfare. It would be easier and I would have more money if I quit my job, collected welfare and food stamps. It's depressing. I'm could really use a little help and it feels like the harder I work the harder it gets. The only thing that keeps me going is my son and how amazing he is. He is so sweet and funny. He is my best-friend. It would be really nice to have an adult around to share responsibilities and to just talk to. Then, I have to physical therapy twice a week because I have a damaged shoulder that causes me constant pain. I hope things turn around soon. I don't know how much longer I can live like this.