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So lately everyone i knew who were expecting are having babies......i don't know but this year 2008 has brought the gift of motherhood to awfully lot of people......i can swear that besides this site I know at least 20 more people who are expecting.......and believe me I am the only one who is talking about the loss.
.....I am very happy for all the moms and moms to be.....everyday i hear that so and so got a boy or had a baby girl.....they send or post pictures.....their life changes and they experience a new life.......I am not saying am jealous and in no ways, even in my dreams, would I ever wish bad for them or their babies......but I just ask myself this question that out of 100 births why was I chosen to be the 1 loss?..........Had i asked anything more....one healthy baby...just like everyone else's..........I know everyone says you will experience the same in future......but my empty hands remind me about my angel all the time.........every week i think today my baby would have been 28 weeks, and now 29.......why do I do that......I have no clue.........Honestly I think people who have not gone through the loss will ever understand a woman with empty hands.......My life has changed a lot......my main goal of life has shifted from being career oriented to TTC as soon as I can.........the wait is just killing me!!
I might sound a little loony .......but this is exactly how I feel inside.....wanting to have a baby more than anything.........I might have still couped up with the situation but I think my husband still struggles with it......the other day i saw him desperately searching for the TV remote to change the channel when he saw a father playing with his little baby......father's day ads make him mad and he can't stand a program about infants.........I know he is very sensitive and we spoke a lot about this..........but I don't know if he is doing all that so that I don't get reminded of the past or cause he is he still grieving the loss........anyways I hope we both find a little comfort in future......
Good luck to new parents and parents to be.....I am wishing you all the joy from the bottom of my heart........Hugs to all and kisses to little ones :)
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So lately everyone i knew who were expecting are having babies......i don't know but this year 2008 has brought the gift of motherhood to awfully lot of people......i can swear that besides this site I know at least 20 more people who are expecting.......and believe me I am the only one who is talking about the loss.
.....I am very happy for all the moms and moms to be.....everyday i hear that so and so got a boy or had a baby girl.....they send or post pictures.....their life changes and they experience a new life.......I am not saying am jealous and in no ways, even in my dreams, would I ever wish bad for them or their babies......but I just ask myself this question that out of 100 births why was I chosen to be the 1 loss?..........Had i asked anything more....one healthy baby...just like everyone else's..........I know everyone says you will experience the same in future......but my empty hands remind me about my angel all the time.........every week i think today my baby would have been 28 weeks, and now 29.......why do I do that......I have no clue.........Honestly I think people who have not gone through the loss will ever understand a woman with empty hands.......My life has changed a lot......my main goal of life has shifted from being career oriented to TTC as soon as I can.........the wait is just killing me!!
I might sound a little loony .......but this is exactly how I feel inside.....wanting to have a baby more than anything.........I might have still couped up with the situation but I think my husband still struggles with it......the other day i saw him desperately searching for the TV remote to change the channel when he saw a father playing with his little baby......father's day ads make him mad and he can't stand a program about infants.........I know he is very sensitive and we spoke a lot about this..........but I don't know if he is doing all that so that I don't get reminded of the past or cause he is he still grieving the loss........anyways I hope we both find a little comfort in future......
Good luck to new parents and parents to be.....I am wishing you all the joy from the bottom of my heart........Hugs to all and kisses to little ones :)
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