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Everyday gets a little better for me. Sometime i have to take it a minute at a time. My son has touched my life in ways i cant even began to explain. He showed me a whole NEW meaning of love. I hate that he isnt here with me but i carry him in my heart and spirit. Im so thankful that God allowed him to be here for 6 days with me, even though he was in the NICU. I got a chance to hear him cry at birth, we got a chance to look into each others eyes, and i got a chance to hold him days before he passed away. The nurse had to change his sheets bc he use to wiggle out of his diapers and tee tee every where,lol and thats how i got to hold him. It was only for about 20secs but it was the best feeling in the world. God also allowed him to pass away in my arms. I wanted him with mommy and i was there to protect and hold him as long as i could. Its been about 3 weeks since he has passed and i will never stop loving and thinking of him. I still feel incomplete and empty at times but ladies God is surely moving in my life. He has given me strength that i didnt even know i had. He loves me and well as you ladies. He never makes mistakes and just trust in Him no matter what you may be going through in life. He listens and answers prayers BUT NOT when we feel He should answer them. God has NEVER told me no, so yes i know i will have another child oneday and things will be just fine. Landan's spirit will be part of that child too :) Keep me your prayers and ask God to give me strength and peace.
3 Comments on My Angel
marcie521 - Wednesday, 16 Sep
You are beyond strong!!! You are so humble and you have such a loving spirit. When you do have more children you will be a great mother. God bless you and continue to trust God.
SHERRYBABYDEAN - Tuesday, 15 Sep
Landan was lucky to have such a strong Mommy.I was strong but, certainly not as much as you.The doctors all told me that Joshua wouldn't make it past a few hours.Most told me to medically terminate.I told them that I would take those few hours!God had other plans for Joshua.I did trust in the Lord however,it didn't stop me from crying at every pre-natal appointment.When he wasn't breathing at birth,my heart sank.15-20 minutes past before they let me know that he was still alive.I still cry just thinking about those appointments and those minutes after birth.I am so sorry Landan isn't here today.It must be hard to understand God's ways sometimes.Joshua is truly a miracle and I try to express that as much as I can.There is a woman on here that had abortion papers signed because the doctors gave her such grim news about her baby.I wrote to her and she changed her mind at the last few minutes.She kept saying that she couldn't forgive herself if that small miracle would happen.Her name is soontobemommy on here.Her baby did live and is 1 year old now.Some miracles are seen in different ways.I desperately wanted those few minutes.I was very lucky to have so much more.Joshua's life gave another baby,baby Matthew, a chance to be born.Landan was only here a short time but,was such a blessing.O will keep you in my prayers for continuing strength.Thank you so much for your update.
Str8 As - Tuesday, 15 Sep
You are amazing!
| 14-9-2009 - My Angel |  My mood while writing this blog:Thankful |
Everyday gets a little better for me. Sometime i have to take it a minute at a time. My son has touched my life in ways i cant even began to explain. He showed me a whole NEW meaning of love. I hate that he isnt here with me but i carry him in my heart and spirit. Im so thankful that God allowed him to be here for 6 days with me, even though he was in the NICU. I got a chance to hear him cry at birth, we got a chance to look into each others eyes, and i got a chance to hold him days before he passed away. The nurse had to change his sheets bc he use to wiggle out of his diapers and tee tee every where,lol and thats how i got to hold him. It was only for about 20secs but it was the best feeling in the world. God also allowed him to pass away in my arms. I wanted him with mommy and i was there to protect and hold him as long as i could. Its been about 3 weeks since he has passed and i will never stop loving and thinking of him. I still feel incomplete and empty at times but ladies God is surely moving in my life. He has given me strength that i didnt even know i had. He loves me and well as you ladies. He never makes mistakes and just trust in Him no matter what you may be going through in life. He listens and answers prayers BUT NOT when we feel He should answer them. God has NEVER told me no, so yes i know i will have another child oneday and things will be just fine. Landan's spirit will be part of that child too :) Keep me your prayers and ask God to give me strength and peace.
3 Comments on My Angel
marcie521 - Wednesday, 16 Sep
You are beyond strong!!! You are so humble and you have such a loving spirit. When you do have more children you will be a great mother. God bless you and continue to trust God.
SHERRYBABYDEAN - Tuesday, 15 Sep
Landan was lucky to have such a strong Mommy.I was strong but, certainly not as much as you.The doctors all told me that Joshua wouldn't make it past a few hours.Most told me to medically terminate.I told them that I would take those few hours!God had other plans for Joshua.I did trust in the Lord however,it didn't stop me from crying at every pre-natal appointment.When he wasn't breathing at birth,my heart sank.15-20 minutes past before they let me know that he was still alive.I still cry just thinking about those appointments and those minutes after birth.I am so sorry Landan isn't here today.It must be hard to understand God's ways sometimes.Joshua is truly a miracle and I try to express that as much as I can.There is a woman on here that had abortion papers signed because the doctors gave her such grim news about her baby.I wrote to her and she changed her mind at the last few minutes.She kept saying that she couldn't forgive herself if that small miracle would happen.Her name is soontobemommy on here.Her baby did live and is 1 year old now.Some miracles are seen in different ways.I desperately wanted those few minutes.I was very lucky to have so much more.Joshua's life gave another baby,baby Matthew, a chance to be born.Landan was only here a short time but,was such a blessing.O will keep you in my prayers for continuing strength.Thank you so much for your update.
Str8 As - Tuesday, 15 Sep
You are amazing!
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