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29-4-2008 - Soon to be Mommy

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Hey everyone!

OK...well, no one has slapped me and I needed to be slapped. My pathetic mood feeling sorry for myself seriously needs to go away. I really appreciate everyone being so supportive and letting me vent so much lately. I know it is very unlike me to be down for more than a couple hours. I have been sick nonstop for about 1 1/2 weeks and it's just been so taxing. After MONTHS of being sick too! I have hated just listening to myself. I am always the one that lectures about living each day as if it is your last...and instead I have been wishing away the days. I kept hoping, wishing and praying that the next day would be better and when it wasn't I just started to lose hope.

Without hope you have nothing. Thanks, to my buddy Sean Swarner...I am reminded of that.

Yes, I am sick as SHIT. Don't blame me for swearing...I have been effing sick and I have ever right to swear about it. BUT...I am going to get through this. I am off this medication and off this blasted bed ridden restriction on SATURDAY. I'll be in my 9th month on Satuday. ALL THOSE months, weeks, days and hours of being sick. I remember when I had the PICC line and watching the drips in my IV slowly...when time was standing still. I can do this. I am very close to having this baby....the thing that I have wanted most in my entire life...to be a Mommy.

I think that sometimes even the happiest people in the world...need to just lose it at times. Like I always say...if you didn't have bad times, you wouldn't truly appreciate the good times. I just know that all my suffering will be worth it. I cannot wait to hold this baby. I can't wait to kiss him. I can't wait to see this person that John and I have created. To touch his little feet. I can't wait to be a mom. What's so ironic is that I already know that I would go through this all again for him, and I haven't even met him yet. Isn't that amazing?

So...even though I might want to scream as I'm hunched over the toliet yacking my guts up for the millionth time...I know that it's just the first steps in being a Mommy. I've never felt so utterly prepared and utterly terrifed of anything in my whole life...and I'm so ready.

4 Comments on Soon to be Mommy

startingoverat37 - Friday, 2 May
You are my inspiration in many things! We have been through alot together and we will get through this if I need to get on a plane to get you through this last week I will book it tonight. I have considered flying in with Erin for the past month. I think I will have to do so soon. I am still thinking of how I could do it. But anyways you can do this! You are the dragon slayer with many deep slashes but you are still alive! You will make it sweet one! Focus on that sweet boy everytime you feel like you can't take one more step. I will be here to root you on of course!

startingoverat37 - Friday, 2 May
The Lord choose you to be this little mans Mom....He also choose you to have HG during this pregnancy. (though we do not understand the whys we only know the fact is you were!) The Lord will give you the strength you need to endure this last part, as He has throughout the last 9 months. You may not be as sick as you were 7 months ago but you are tired and feel as if you are losing the battle. You are almost done with this battle. You will slay the dragon, just a bit more fighting and the end will come. We are rooting for you love!!!! If I could do it you can do it! You are in my daily prayers darling.

lisatek82 - Thursday, 1 May
Vent away sweetie... I know how it is. You will be a momma soon enough and then you will be wishing for a break...LOL Not too much longer:)

StillinHisCare - Tuesday, 29 Apr
Vent away!!!! I'm hearin' ya loud and clear over here!!!
Saturday is comin'!!! It is like running a long marathon. You have been running and running and running and there - just when your legs are giving out, and you are gasping for air and feeling like you can't go on - is the FINISH LINE!!! With "JOHNNY" written all over it! We are all there, cheering and taking pictures!!! The PARTY is about to begin! Just a few more steps!!!
And you will be a Mommy!
We are so happy for you being in this race and I am praying for your strength and for your HOPE to keep running dear one!
Love SueAnn
"Come on Jewels!!!!"

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