22-11-2009 - ~*Life as a mother of 5!*~

My mood while writing this blog: ~*Beyond words!*~

~*Wow well sorry I haven't updated in awhile! I've been wonderfuly very busy! It's been 9 days since Jackson came into this big world! It has taken some time to get use to having 5 children but believe it or not it is such a beautiful joyful lesson I am still learning everyday! I am so much in love with my nice size family! How often wonder how I got so lucky! Me and my hubby have had our problems but we are a great team and we pull together! He has been so wonderful in helping me and supporting me! The kids are great! They love holding thier brother and having thier mommy back! lol It feels so good to be able to get down in the floor and just roll around witht hem again! There has been some issues with me but I'm putting it in God's hands and I know he knows what is best for us! I wasn't planning on breastfeeding as i had tired with my 1st which was almost 8 years ago and it didn't work out! But right after Jackson was born they put him on my bare chest for hours and he just kinda found my breats lol and took right to it and it felt great! I tired my best to stick to it even went to a person that helps with it but in the end 7 days later my nipples were bleeding and he wasn't getting full! Always wanted to be on my breasts which would have been fine if it wasn't so painful and I didn't have 4 other children I had to care for! So I started pumping! Which now my milk supply is going down and I'm trying everything to keep it up but I guess in the end if we have to do just formula so be it! I gave it my best and he got all the good stuff plus more! I'm just glad I got that bond with him! Which I'm still doing skin to skin! Life is so good right now it feels like a dream! What do you do when you have everything you ever wanted? I feel my life was meant to be this way and I am now whole! Well I guess that's it for my little update!!

P.S. JACKSON CORD FELL OFF TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Til next time Play Safe and count your blessings!!*~