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18-5-2009 - OH MY GOODNESS!!!!.... I'm Starting Over!

My mood while writing this blog: Tired

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It took me some time to finally write this without being so emotional. Let me first start off by saying that I absolutely love me little girl. I am truly blessed and thankful that I had the opportunity to have another healthy baby.
My children are over 7yrs apart! For the longest time I was content with having only one child. I wasn't married and I was very focused on my career and making a better life for me and my son. Then I meet my husband who didn't have any children of his own so I knew he would like to have at least one. So here we are....

Let me get right to it.... It's hard as hell!!!!! I had a repeat c-section and the recovery was longer for me and it kicked my butt for the first 2wks. I totally forgot about the long nights and the around the clock feedings. I don't like to compare my children but I can't help but notice such a difference in the two. My son was so easy going. He didn't cry much and you could take him anywhere with no problem. Now my baby girl.... She has a set of lungs that can out do any emergency sirens! She is very demanding and will not stop crying until she gets exactly what she wants.

I want to stay home with my kids, but now I don't know if I'm cut out to be a stay at home mom. Some people think that it's easy to be a SAHM, but I know that's not true. I have never doubted my abilities as a mother until I had this baby. I want to be the best for my kids no matter if I'm home with them or back to work.

My family has asked if I'm going to have any more kids and at this point I say absolutely not! Am I wrong for feeling this way?

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2 Comments on OH MY GOODNESS!!!!.... I'm Starting Over!


devinessa - Monday, 18 May
It really is hard to be a stay home mom and I often doubt myself about being a good mother too and loving my children enough. I often find myself wanting to fast forward through the baby years to when they are more independent and receptive, but then I assure myself that these years won't last forever and before you know it, they would be grown men and the only time I get to see them is when they are hungry.

mizzkeisha - Monday, 18 May
I definitely feel you on the starting over thing because my youngest child is 10 years old, so its like starting back from square 1. And no, you wouldn't be wrong for saying you don't want to have any more kids. Its your body and your life and you have to deal with it, so make sure you make your decision for you, not everybody else. Take care!!