11-6-2008 - TTC/Early PG Entries

My mood while writing this blog: Reminiscent

Thursday, 21 Feb I’m really really really anxious being in the ‘2 week wait’ - I honestly don’t understand how people can do this! Not to mention I am a melting pot of hormonal messes (as my DH would say, haha). According to the OPK and my Ovulation Calendar, I should’ve O’d on the 16th, which means: Implantation Day was yesterday and hoping that I can test on the 29th!! Fingers crossed we’re PREGNANT!! I’m getting really nervous to see a BFN, but I keep telling myself, that I am young and I have plenty of time...it’s still a worry of mine!! Good luck to the ladies that are currently TTC as well!! I’m sending lots of BABY DUST your way! Xoxox

Sunday, 24 Feb So it was only 5 days until testing yesterday and my DH decided that we should test early, just in case there was that slight possibility that it’d show up positive....

WRONG!!!

It was a big fat NEGATIVE

Not to mention, I am really feeling signs of AF starting soon. My bb`s hurt, I’m bloated, my poor little bb `s seem engorged, and I’ve had small crampy feelings. So who knows? There is always next month.

I just wanted to have an 08 baby sooo bad, but if I don’t get preggo next month, than my chances are now over...conceiving in April puts me into January of 09. As long as I get pregnant with a happy, healthy baby -- I don’t care anymore what month I have it.

Monday, 25 Feb I’m getting so nervous for Friday. I’m still undecided whether or not I want to test at home or wait until my OB appointment on the 3^rd to find out whether or not I am pregnant. I guess we’ll just have to see if AF arrives on Friday. ***Please Lord, NO!!*** I’ve been feeling a little crampy and my BB’s are still hurting more than ever. They’ve never hurt this bad before, so I’m a little confused. And my CM is back to being sticky and thick (eww!). I’m not sure how to test for the whole CP, that whole idea sort of grosses me out a little. And at 2am I woke up, wide awake, sweating like I had a 105 degree fever. It was the weirdest thing. I was soaking wet from sweat. I’m just praying that all these unusual things are a good sign, since I never have them with any previous period. Pray for me.

Monday, 25 Feb (11pm) I found these possible symptoms of pregnancy in the forum on this site... for all I know these could all just be in my head, just thought it was pretty interesting...what do you think?

Exhaustion or feeling sleepy - Can occur one to six weeks after conception and last your entire pregnancy. ((I've felt so tired and lazy lately...))

Feeling pregnant - Call it a sixth sense, some women are just "feeling" pregnant. ((I wouldn't say I feel pregnant but I feel "fuller"))

Food cravings - About 85 percent of women report at least one food craving during pregnancy. They are caused by hormonal changes in the body. Sweet or salty snacks are most popular. ((I've been eating a lot more than I usually do, hence the weight gain! Grrrr))

Headaches - As hormone levels fluctuate throughout a woman's pregnancy, the frequency and severity of headaches may vary as well. About 2 in 5 women notice an increase of headaches during the first months of the pregnancy. ((I've had a migraine every day since last Wednesday and I currently have one right now!!))

Irritability - Hormones cause a lot of mood swings and irritability during a pregnancy. ((My poor hubby, one minute I am crying bc he made a funny comment about my toes and the next I'm biting off his head bc he started making Manicotti after I told him I wanted to make it, lol))

Tender or swollen breasts - This symptom is one that can appear rather quickly after fertilization - one to two weeks after conception and will most likely be with you your entire pregnancy. The symptom is due to increasing amount of HCG hormone that begins at implantation. ((This one really gets me excited bc my boobs have been killing me for the last 4 days now, and it's too the point that I feel like they're going to explode and they NEVER get like this!! lol))

Tiredness - Your body goes through hormonal changes. HCG forms in your body; your temperature is higher due to the amount progesterone circulating through your body which will make you feel tired. Take it easier, eat more calories. (300 more a day) ((I woke up last night (after only sleeping in a t-shirt and underwear) sweating to death, and burning up!!! Plus I've been completely exhausted for the last couple of days and I haven't done anything, I'm exhausted!))

Tuesday, 26 Feb Well today I've felt a little different then the last couple of days have felt. My bb's aren't killing me, thank God that pain finally subsided a little, the nipples are the only things now that are super sensitive. I'm feeling sort of "fat" today. Like I'm busting out of my clothes and I've had a little crampy feelings off and on all day. I also had this metal taste in the back of my mouth too, when I swallow - sort of gags me, but I'm not sure if that's just from having drainage. Either way, it's gross. I'm snowed in today, or I'd go out and buy Geritol (was told that it helps with conception) - I wanted to get it yesterday too but we've been hit pretty hard here in Ohio. I have about 2 feet of snow in my driveway, keeping me from leaving. Grrrr!!!

I want so badly to go and buy some hpt's just to take and see if I can even see a faint positive. I'm 11dpo now, only a day to go until testing. I keep saying that I want to wait and see if AF arrives, but I am such an impatient person, that I honestly do not think I could wait that long (although it's expected on Friday) lol.

Ohhhh the joys of TTC. I've gone all day without one headache and I'm starting to finally get one. I've had one almost everyday since last Friday or Thursday. It's driving me nuts. I just wish there was this way that a woman could just "know" that she's pregnant the minute it happens...all this waiting is going to kill me and I can't bare to think of going through another cycle -- thats so long away until I'd test again! I'll lose my sanity! Help!

Wednesday, 27 Feb Last night I honestly thought that AF was on its way. I was sitting at the computer and started getting these cramp-like feelings, like what I normally get right before it starts. When I went to the bathroom, there was also a brownish tinge in my CM when I wiped. I think that all those “symptoms” I have been feeling have been in my head and aren’t what I really want it to be. I’ve already had one BFN, but it was definitely too early to test and right now I am 12dpo – technically per my ovulation calendar, it is the earliest effective day for a positive hpt. I may just sneak a test in to see… but I woke up this morning with some cramping again. I really think that AF is going to grace me with her presence this month – GRRR!!! I think I’m losing my mind. Ohh and my bb’s aren’t as sore and swollen anymore either – the only part that is really sensitive is the nipple area now. It’s just weird to me, bc I have never had these problems before – but I’ve been told by a friend of mine that once you start trying, your whole body will start acting out of whack and also may trick you into thinking you may actually be pregnant, giving you the reason to believe you have symptoms. Must be my deal --- what to do, what to do!

Thursday, 28 Feb Well I didn't start last night like I originally thought. I had cramps so bad all day and I just knew it was going to start. By 6pm, I was fine. No more cramping and surprisingly I am now not feeling as bloated as I have been all week. I have no idea whats going on - it almost reminds me of the "quiet before the storm" - storm being AF. Yesterday was the earliest effective day for a home pregnancy test, but I didn't take one bc I was almost positive I was going to start my period. I'm 13dpo today, so I'm really starting to get anxious now. I want to test so bad. My dh asked me last night if I had started bc he knew I had symptoms of AF arriving and I told him no, so he said I better test today, just to see. So I guess we'll have to see, if my test strips arrive today, then I'll test in the morning - so that I have enough MIU/HCG in my system to get a positive read. Hopefully.

Thursday, 28 Feb (9pm) I got home today and my hpt testing strips came in. My husband had them sitting on the table and was smiling from ear to ear - he begged me to take one now instead of waiting until Friday or Monday. Well at first it was very NEGATIVE, but then at second glance there was this tinsy tiny faint line... could this be a POSITIVE!?!?!?!?! I am freaking out. And not to mention really nervous... I have felt like I am pmsing all day today and not to mention the cramps that returned. Is it normal to have cramping and be pregnant?! I dont want to give up hope just yet, so I'll test again tomorrow.

Friday, 29 Feb (AM) Well I just tested again, the moment I woke up and it's doing the same thing. I'm starting to wonder if my test strips are just cheap or what -- bc it takes like the full 5 minutes for that second tinsy tiny faint line to appear... but I got the same reading again this morning. I woke up though with really bad cramps - they're dull & achy now - but I really do believe that AF is arriving. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed that this is a positive test and that the cramping is just from being pregnant, but I honestly don't want to give my hopes up. We'll see how today goes and if I don't start - I'll test again tomorrow morning. I'll just keep testing until I get two very apparent pink lines!! **Wish me luck** Good luck to all the others that are testing today, tomorrow, or next week!! Also, to all my TTCers!!!! FINGERS ARE CROSSED!!!

**Update I spoke to my husband at noon today. He works opposite schedules as me and is sleeping while I am working and I am sleeping when he's working -- well he didn't know that I took another hpt and I had set it on the bathroom counter. He saw it when he got up and said that he saw two lines, one was very faint, but he could see them and asked if that meant if I were preggers!! lol... and I told him that I didn't know that I was going to take another one bc I thought those ones were messed up -- well he told me that he'd try one if the little line appears when he takes the test, then we know it's messed up; so he took it and we're clear! No additional purple line...however, there was like two white lines rather than the color purple, but I think that has to do wtih his urine (and not having female hormones) haha.. i'm not sure - it's hard to explain... but definately wasn't a faint positive (thank God bc we'd both be hurtin' hahahah). So I just wanted to let you all know, I went to the store during my break and bought two EPT's and I'll take one tonight and one tomorrow. Still holding out hope that I get my BFP -- AF hasn't shown her face yet :::knock on wood!:::

Friday, 29 Feb I'm pregnant I'm pregnant I'm pregnant!!! I bought two EPT's on my break today at work and broke down and took another since I wasn't so sure about those faint positives from my testing strips -- sure enough, there were two lines!!!! And this time they weren't FAINT!!! Omg, I just cannot believe this is happening. I cried, that's all I've been doing is crying!!! But because of my cramping and everything (and I'm still having it) - I want to wait until after my doc confirms everything is okay on Monday before I get too-too excited! But either way I've now had 3 POSITIVES!!! I am going to take the other one in a couple days, but I posted the pictures (made it into a snag) -- you tell me what you think!! Thanks so much for all the well wishes -- now I'm sending all my babydust to you ladies!!!!!! xoxoxo

Monday, 3 Mar Well it's been confirmed. I had a 7:45am doctors appointment with my obgyn. I am about 4 1/2 weeks along and due November 9th. Everything that I've been calculating my due date on has been saying either November 6th or 7th. Well he told me that because of the leap year, it screws up the normal "flow" of calculations -- he said it'd be either November 8th or 9th -- but we're saying the 9th. I'm scheduled for my first ultrasound on the 17th! I'm really anxious and excited to see the little peanut on the screen - it'll make things all the more real for me. I'm still not sure reality has sunk in yet! We told our parents last night and my mother in-law about flipped! She's freaking out. She was sooo funny last night. This is what we did...

We went out to eat with them and they were coming by to see our mess (dh is renovating our kitchen), well when I got home I ran upstairs to put my test (took another one Saturday and it was VERY dark!) in a box. I came downstairs and said "something was sent to us the other day and I meant to bring it over, I think it's for us bc it's not for us" and my MIL opened the box and goes "what is that?" and she had a puzzled look on her face - well my sister in law took the box out of her hands and opened it and screamed "OMG SHE'S PREGNANT, THAT'S A PREGNANCY TEST!!" So my MIL grabs it back and goes "OMG, YOU ARE -- IS IT -- ARE YOU REALLY?!" and I shook my head yes and she goes "OMG OMG OMG OMG" running around the house screaming and laughing! lol it was sooo funny I wished I could've videotaped it! haha. So then I told her we're due in November and she goes "YESSS A CHRISTMAS BABY!!!!" hahaha it was too funny! We were losing it bc she was so funny. My father in law was smiling from ear to ear too! He's sooo happy!

I told my mom too and she's excited, but she has alot on her plate, so I didn't get the same reaction with her as I did them. Not to mention, this isn't her first grandchild - so she's been down this road before. She's still happy though.

So I guess I can exhale now -- I'M PREGNANT!!! Omg!!!!

Wednesday, 5 Mar Today I am 4w+3d (per my doc) or 4w+5d (per my LMP) -- we'll find out exactly on the 17th when I have my u/s done. I'm really anxious for that. I really hope that I see a little heartbeat and this will make it all the more real to me. Right now I'm just not so sure it's really kicked in yet. I've already discovered that I have a tinsy-tiny baby bump already!?! Is that possible!? I did an image search for pictures of women who are 4-5 wks pregnant to see what they looked like, and surprisingly they looked a lot like what I do - so I don't feel as bad. My dh says that it's all in my head -- but I had busted my butt to lose a ton of weight before I got pregnant and my stomach was finally almost flat again and now when I sit down I have to like "tuck" it into my jeans! hahaha... ugh! That sounds so gross, sorry!

Not to mention, I've been eating like a cow too. Which is not my norm. Anyone that knows me knows that I usually eat like a rabbit and only have like one meal a day... but lately I can't stop! I'm hungry all the time. I don't remember this. I always thought this happened later as well. My only true symptoms that constantly remind me that I really am pregnant is: sore & BIG bb's, no AF (thank God), hunger and EXHAUSTION. I'm still having cramping and the other day I had a little spotting (but it was after my exam - I still freaked!) Other than that, I just looked like I've packed on 10lbs... I have to remember that the first trimester before I get an actual bump, is the "fat stage" -- and that's exactly how I feel and look. But I cannot complain - I'll take the fat and the sickness over anything! I've wanted this soo bad for soo long!

Speaking of sickness, I've only had one bout of nausea, but other than that I am good to go! :::knock on wood::: hopefully it stays that way, bc I dropped 20lbs with my daughter the first four months. I was very ILL!! Okay, well I just wanted to update! Have a wonderful day and ALL MY BABYDUST TO EVERYONE!!!!

Monday, 10 Mar Gosh I am feeling so frumpy lately. My appetite has increased so much that it disgusts me. I know that I am pregnant and I'm suppose to enjoy this but this weekend all I kept thinking about was the mounds of calories that I was consuming. I just ate and ate and ate all weekend. Anyone that knows me, knows that I usually consume around 1000 calories or less daily before being pregnant. I had worked my butt of to lose a ton of weight before getting pregnant and I swore that I wouldn't gain like I did with Kaylee. And here I am, I'm just shoving my face full of food, any chance I can get. I had put some weight on before we got pregnant, because I heard it was harder to conceive when you're BMI is low. So I put on some weight, I was around 122 or 125. And then when I got weighed on Monday, I had weighed about 128 (ugh!). And now with all my eating, I feel like that I weigh about 135 now. I can see it in my thighs and my arms, not to mention my expanding belly already and it's way too soon to be showing there but I am -- I've just come to realize that it's fat from all my eating.

I haven't really any morning sickness yet... but I know it's coming. It hit me around week 10 with Kaylee, and it lasted until week 16. I lost around 20lbs and was so ill, that I had to be IV'd at one point. I couldn't even keep water down it was that bad. I'm hoping I don't get it that bad... maybe just enough to curb my appetite a little. I guess the only thing I have going for me and I didn't have when I was pregnant before is all the cardio I do. I've decided that I am going to keep up with the MWFS classes, which is 4 hours of cardio a week, but also, I am going to do the treadmill and the elipitcal machine on T and Th for 45 minutes. Hopefully this will help burn some of the added extra empty calories that I am consuming. And then as soon as this baby is born, I'm hitting the gym and I'm taking on walking. My bb's are still really sore and heavy and I've been so dang tired too. I can't take it -- there have been numerous times that my eye lids have felt so heavy driving to work at 7am, that I have felt like I could just fall asleep at the wheel. I think people with flexible work schedules or don't start work until later, have benefits -- bc those that are pg can either a.) sleep in a little extra longer and b.) have times where they can just take it easy and sit around. Where as I can't! I wake up at 6am, get myself ready and my daugther and we're in the car by 7:10am, I drop her off and I drive 30miles to work -- when I get there I am immediately put to work and making 70+ calls a day, where I am sitting in front of a computer screen non-stop (another reason I am going blind too). And then I get 1 hour for a break, which I usually do my errands and then at 5pm, I drive to cardio/home (another 30 minute drive) and I have like 2 hours to hang out with my daughter and then get her ready for bed, and by then it's already 9:30pm and I'm dead tired, getting myself ready for bed. By 10pm, I'm usually in bed! I'm EXHAUSTED!!!! There are NO breaks at all. No chances of me being able to stay home, or switch my schedule with anyone, nothing... 40 hours a week, 7 days a week!! I look forward to Saturdays and Sundays. Luckily this weekend, my hubby let me sleep. I stayed on the couch all day Saturday with my blanket and pillow - it was WONDERFUL!! And even Sunday, he let me sleep in and then I even took a nap too. Omg was it nice!! It was definately much needed.

I'm getting anxious for when this baby comes, bc I will not have any breaks. My hubby works from 6pm until 4:30am -- I'm going to be pulling hair out at night. Thank god I won't be going back to work -- bc I wouldn't be able to handle it. I'm so excited to be a SAHM. It's always been my dream. As much as I am independent and I'd like to work, I am going to wait until all my kids are in school and then I'll probably work somewhere part time bc I still want to be the PTA mom and be able to shuttle my kids to where they need to be and to attend school events. I'm not missing ANYTHING now! I missed too much already with my daughter and I'll never get it back...

Ok, well I've bored ya enough with my rambling -- even though it probably jumped around and didn't make sense. I hadn't blogged in a while, so I figured why not. I leave Thursday for Florida -- and I'll be back Sunday; just in time for my U/S on the 17th!!! I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited! I can't wait to see the heart beat!!! It'll definitely make it more real for me!! :0) Have a great day!!! xoxo

Wednesday, 12 Mar Well it's official - I'm putting on weight! OMG!!! I went to the YMCA last night and got on the scale and it said 130!! I'm up 2lbs from the 3rd. That is NOT good. I am not suppose to be putting on weight like this yet. That's 2lbs this month already and I'm only 1 1/2 months preggers. Yikes! I'm in trouble! So I am putting myself on a "Pregnancy Diet" and I am eating NO JUNK food - No french fries, No sweets, No cookies, No chips & dip, etc. The last two days I've had salad for lunch and dinner and then an apple for snacks. This morning I had honey bunches of oats with almonds with skim milk for breakfast and yesterday I had an apple for breakfast. I've got to do something -- my body isn't used to taking in this many calories... just at the beginning of January I was 116lbs, now I am 130!!! That's a 14lb difference! Yikes, and I checked how much I should gain with this pregnancy and it said 33lbs. And I am okay with that, as long as it's in moderation. I need to stop all my binges and late night eatings. Wow -- what an eye opener. Looks like it's going to be a full on hard workout at the YMCA tonight... one hour of cardio, here I come!!

I'm getting ready to leave for Florida tomorrow. My dad is getting re-married (6 months from the day his divorce was final with my mom - not happy about this), and he moved to Florida in Sept - so this is going to be a bitter sweet trip. I haven't seen my dad in 7 months, nor has my daughter seen her pa-paw in that long, so I am really anxious about that but I am also dreading the wedding. I do not know this women, I've never seen where he lives, I don't even know where he lives down there -- it's just sort of too much to handle. Definately going to be an emotional time down there... people at work keep saying "Krystal gets to be in Florida for a couple days, soaking up the sun and being on a mini-vacation" but I hardly call this a mini-vacation -- I get to watch my father marry a woman I have never met and meet people I've never seen before in my life! OH JOY!!

It'll be interesting. That's for sure -- ugh! I am however looking forward to coming home and going to my first u/s on Monday!!! I cannot wait to see the little heartbeat. That's all I keep thinking about!! I can't wait to see my husbands face too when he finally realizes there is going to be a new baby around!! Omg!! I'm sooo excited!!!

Thursday, 13 Mar Well I'm getting ready to leave for Florida, I'm really anxious about going. A lot of emotions going through my head right now. Ugh! Oh well -- what happens happens, I guess. My dad is a grown man, I can't stop him from marrying a woman that we've never met before. All I can do is just be there for him and take it all in stride - ugh as much as I don't want to. Anyhow, this morning (at 4am) when my husband got home...he got into bed and snuggled up to me, which is not his norm and he rubbed my stomach and told me that I was beautiful. I was like OMG I'm going to cry!! #1 my husband is NOT a cuddler, #2 he never says things like that, only once in a while and #3 it was just so out of the blue and so unlike him that it was just the sweetest thig he could have possibly done!! I think he knows how down I feel on myself right now and with my dad's wedding and everything going on - I think he just felt I needed to hear that. But regardless, it was so nice. This is the FIRST time since we found out that I was pregnant that he's touched my belly and acknowledge me being beautiful, pretty, etc. It made me feel really good. Now I'm just hoping that it really hits him when he sees our baby on the monitor on Monday when we have our ultrasound done. I'm soooo anxious for this day to get here. I cannot wait to see my little bean on the screen and hear the heartbeat. I'll be 7wks by then... so I know they'll hear it with the internal doppler. Yahh!! Alright -- well I must finish my work bc we are planning on being on the road by 3:30ish, we have a LONG 15 hour drive ahead of us. Luckily it'll be 75 down there! Yahhhoooo!!! lol... I'm such a dork! But I need the warmth, especially since it's been below freezing here in Ohio for MONTHS now!! Have a great day and a wonderful weekend!! Talk to you all Monday!!! xoxo

Monday, 17 Mar Wow what a weekend... after spending 15 hours in the car (not a good thing for a pregnant woman and her 4 year old child lol) -- I got to Florida to find out my dad had lied and over exaggerated everything he had been telling us for the last 6 months. Ugh! The day we got in, he talked with us for like 15 minutes and then left us so he could run errands and what not and we never saw him again that day until the dinner party that night, which we didn't even get to talk to him -- he was too busy with his Florida friends/family. Right now I am extremely emotional so I pretty much cried a lot. And then Saturday, the day of the wedding I had to spend the whole day with my new step-sister who is just trash if you as me. She is pregnant (doesn't know how far along bc she doesn't want to go to the docs, she had a m/c in Dec.) and she smoked about a pack of cigarettes every few hours, it was disgusting. Then at the wedding, she was drinking heavily. I just wanted to slap her. Being that I am pregnant myself and NOW related (unfortunately) - I went off on her. I told her that she was harming her baby in ways she couldn't even begin to imagine and that one glass of wine once is a while is fine, but not beer, shots, and numerous glasses of wine in one sitting. I also made a comment about her smoking and she looked at me as if I was the stupidest person on earth bc she has a 6 year old son and she's been a mother longer. She's 25 years old and has LOST custody of her child bc she couldn't take care of him. OMG!!! I couldn't wait to come home -- my new step-mother is alright. She was genuinely nice and I felt that she meant well, but she's still a homewrecker to me.

During their vows (they both had written seperately), they both talked about how they've loved and longed for eachother for over 20+years and that they knew that they'd always find each other. Note to those that don't know me or my family...my mom and dad had been married for 22 years. So I was taken back by those comments. My dad also stated in his that he has felt so alone, so happy for so long that he finally feels free and loved. WHAT!? What the heck am I and my sister and brother to him!? Or my daughter, HIS GRANDCHILD!? Is that not enough love. He stated in HIS VOWS that he has felt for years that he had to strive and work hard to manage a family, and got nothing in return and what this woman gives him makes up for it all. At that point I am bawling bc I am so hurt and so mad at him. I couldn't even look at him after it. I felt horrible for my mother, bc she had married a man and had children with a man that never loved her at all... it was all a lie. And my sister and brother must of been born out of LUST, not Love. Ugh! It was just a horrible experience. And to top it all off, the only reason we agreed to go was bc my dad said he'd pay for all our expenses...the gas, food, hotel. Well we ended up forking out $800 and we haven't seen a dime. I'm waiting to see if the hotel shows up on our credit card bc it was supposed to be switched to theirs before we left. And my dad has completely ignored the whole money issue. I'm just sooo full of mixed emotions right now...hate, hurt, relief, betrayal, etc.

On a brighter note, I am back in Ohio and Jeremy and I got to see the baby today!!! We had our first ultrasound at 9:00am and she found our little bean right away!!! Jeremy was very emotional to begin with bc on the way to our appointment he found out that a close family friend of his & his family was killed in a car accident yesterday. So she was teary-eyed when she showed us the heart beat. And when she printed out pictures and gave him one, he just smiledfrom ear to ear. The baby looks great. I'm measuring 6w+3d, even though according to my LMP I'm about 7wks. She said the heart rate was about 106, which seems low but she said it was perfect according to how far along I am. Heart rates start around 80-85bpm at 5wks, and if I am measuring 6w's, well then I am fine. She said everything else looks great and so far everything looks great. So that is a relief. I am so happy and releived to have seen the heart beat. It makes it so much more real for us. Our next appointment is on 03.25.08 - and that's when I do all the blood work and questions and what not. Fun fun. I'll keep ya posted!!

Tuesday, 18 Mar Ok well morning (all day) sickness has FINALLY hit. Omigod!!!! I knew it was starting bc last Thursday I started getting nauseas a lot! Now I'm literally sick. lol. Yesterday all I had was spaghettio's and I was soooo hungary, so when I got home I tried to make Kaylee and I spinach bowtie spaghetti...well it lasted two bites and I was running to the bathroom with my head in the toilet. I knew it was too good to be true, I honestly thought I'd make it through the first trimester without sickness. WRONG! lol. And now today, I woke up this morning feeling so gross. The whole way to work I felt like crap and the longer I sat here the worse I felt...so I just made myself a bagel with cream cheese and that has made me ill now too. That burning feeling is back in the back of my throat!! I just hope I don't get sick at work. Yikes! So it's official - MORNING SICKNESS HAS ARRIVED!!

Monday, 24 Mar Omg I am dying!! This weekend has been horrible. I was all excited that I'd have the whole house to myself (Kaylee was with her dad and Jeremy was in S.C.) and the entire time they were gone I was ill. Bleh! It started Friday night. I should've known better. I had spinach alfredo pizza (my fav!) and well the spinach got me again. I cannot have spinach anymore bc everytime I do, I get really sick. So I was in bed, physically ill -- stomach cramps, heaving, nausesas, etc by 11pm. At 1am, I was up sick - 2:30am, up sick again and at 4 or 5am, was up sick for the last time. So I slept in until 11am -- and went straight to the bathtub. I laid in a hot bubbly bath for about an hour and a half. It felt good and sort of soothed my stomach. All the sickness left me with crampy feelings in my stomach and a sour taste in my mouth -blehhhhhhh. So Saturday during the day I hung out at the house laying on the couch until about 5:30pm and I went over to my mother in-laws to scrapbook. Once I left there I went to Rach's house for a little and by 12:30am was home and in bed. I slept again until like 10am. It was great. Easter was sort of a blaze day for me. I was home alone all morning long :0( and so I decided to go to my mother in-laws again to scrapbook some more (I'm working on about 5 different albums right now) -- and at 3:30pm I left to go get Kaylee. I got really sick in the car, so I ate about 4 Rolaids on my way to my Gma's house with Kaylee. After all was said and done, I ended up not eating that much and I felt like crap. So Kaylee and I went straight to bed at 9pm last night.

And of course, being exhausted and physically weak, my phone rings at 11pm - waking me from a DEAD sleep; pranking me with Ned Griffin's voice from Family Guy and then using Jack Black's voice and lines from the movie Tenacious D (of course I know these bc my hubby is obsessed with Family Guy and he thinks Tenacious D is the funniest movie ever). So I assumed it was my brother and I start going off... and they kept it up -- well I just hung up. I called my brother and woke him out of his sleep, so I knew it wasn't him, so I have NO idea who pranked me last night. Who ever it was I was NOT happy with!! I savor any sleep I can get right now - I do not get naps, I do not get rest --- I leave my house at 7am EVERYDAY and do not get home until almost 6pm everynight unless I have class, and then I don't get home until after 7pm -- by then I have to get my kid ready for bed!!! I AM EXHAUSTED!!!!! I envy those of you that get time off of work, or don't have to go in until later and can lay around the house, etc. Ugh! I'm jealous!

Tuesday, 25 Mar Today was my first prenatal appointment. It went well. I am very excited to announce that so far within 8 weeks - I've only gained 3lbs! Woohoo! I was really getting upset and feeling down on myself bc I thought I was really packing on the weight. But my weight came in at 131. So I am okay with that. I hope to keep the weight on the lower end. The nurse practitioner did all the blood work too OUCH! I hate needles too!!! Thanks to my "lovely" birthing experience with my daughter, I can no longer handle needles of any kind!!! But all she did was ask me about my family medical history and things like that. She told me when to expect my next u/s, sugar testing & the quad screening. She also introduced me to all the other doctors since I've only been seeing the one. It was a good appointment. I am scheduled to go back on May 2nd (13wks) - we get to hear the heartbeat! She was going to try and do the heartbeat today, but I told my husband he didn't have to come bc they weren't doing anything that he wouldn't want to miss... so when she asked, I told her I'd rather wait until my dh was with me. I want us to hear the heartbeat together. I know how bummed he'd be if he missed it. She also miscalculated my due date and put me down at 12wks...and I was like WHAT? I was really excited -- but then she realized her mistake and quickly changed it to 8 weeks. DARN!!! Oh well... 12 weeks will be here before I know it. I just can't wait!