20-8-2008 - Is It November Yet?

My mood while writing this blog: Sick & Tired

Well I am about sick and tired of being sick and tired... whatever is going on in me needs to stop. I can't take it. I am so tired of feeling like I could croak at any moment. I'm tired of feeling like my head is going to explode - my child is going to fall out of my va-jay-jay - my world is spinning and hitting the floor bc I can no longer take the episodes going on inside me.

Today was my Glucose Test. I got up and was feeling great. I ate breakfast with Kaylee and took her to school -- on my way there my head started feeling really heavy and funny but I just figured it was because I was nervous about having my blood drawn. When I got their, the nurse asked me how I was feeling and I told her that I was feeling weird today but otherwise okay. So she took me back into a room and checked my vitals - BP was fine, weight is at a total of 25lbs gain and baby's heart rate was 140bpm. She asked me if I handle needles well and I told her that I don't like them but that they don't really have any affects on me... so she straps my arm up and pops in the needle and immediately my head started buzzing! By the time she got to the second tube to fill, I told her I needed to lie down bc I felt like I was going to pass out and she finished up and put the bed down for me and then went to go get the doctor.

He came in and asked me a serious of questions. He said that more than likely I am developing anemia again too... like I did with my first pregnancy and told me that he no longer wants me eating big meals or six meals a day... he wants me eating something small every two hours. He also told me to cut back on my fruit bc of the sugar that's in them. He said that other than Asher weighing heavy on me down there -- that he feels there is more to it, other than the pressure he's causing... so they're going to keep running tests until they find out whats wrong and if they can't find anything in particular, he wants me coming in every two weeks from now on until I start going weekly - just to keep monitoring me. He also told me that one good idea to keep some of the pressure off down there is wearing a maternity belt or support hose/underwear. LOL -- I never imagined I'd ever have to buy something like that -- but it's beginning to sound great if it's going to put an end to this.

So as I was walking out to the main desk to schedule an appt 2 weeks from now, I was standing their feeling very light headed and all of a sudden the room started spinning and I told the lady that I wasn't feeling good again and that I wanted to sit back down again -- but before I could do that, my knees started buckling and I began to black out. I saw the nurses mouth moving as she was trying to say something to me and I couldn't hear a word she said... the rushed me to the back room to lie down real fast. My husband was at home still sleeping bc he works the night shift and I knew I wouldn't be able to get him awake to come pick me up - so I called my MIL who was working right now door, thankfully. She came over and got me and took me home.

I was fine once I got home. I laid on the couch for about an hour and a half and then I got up to eat something. While my husband and I were reconfiguring my computer -- I started feeling light headed again, so I had to go back and lay down again.

I was so excited to think this morning, how great it felt to have no episodes yesterday and I thought that by me not working was finally the key to all this nonsense... WRONG!!! So it looks like I really need to be lying down pretty much most of the day and not be sitting around or standing for long periods of time.

I go back in two weeks to be checked again and also to get my results from my sugar and iron test. In the meantime - I get to swallow gigantic horse pills everyday to double up on my iron. Fun fun!! I'm pretty much done with this pregnancy. I cannot wait for it to be over and have my body back in control of things and have a healthy baby at home. This pregnancy is pretty much changing my thoughts on ever being pregnant again... it really is. November can't get here fast enough. I honestly think that come 37-38wks I am going to be BEGGING for them to induce me - I can't do this anymore... I'm only 28.5 wks pregnant!! What am I going to do??

Just another fabulous day for me I guess... I really hope everyone else is doing much much better than I am!! I can't imagine anyone else having to deal with this. I'm developing migraines now bc of all the dizziness. GRRRRR Oh well -- what can I do? Take care, have a great day...