13-8-2009 - Scary and disturbing dream

My mood while writing this blog: Freaked out

I just woke up not too long ago from a dream that my cousin Jennifer was being mean to my face (I say this because she is usually super nice then turns around and talks badly about me, or lies, steals or says things that aren't true behind my back, always behind my back never to my face) then she kicked me in the stomach really hard and I started crying because I am pregnant of course and I started bleeding all over and I was like whats wrong with you I am losing my baby now and I was swearing at her and she didn't even care she was laughing at me and kicked me again I tried running away and she kicked me in the back i fell down and when I got up I looked at my stomach and it was deflated like a balloon and I woke up crying.

I recently disowned her because she is such a horrible person (believe me I tried to see some good in her the past 30 years but she is worse than ever and she told one of my cousins the other day some horrible things and that she doesn't like our family either and we have a huge family over 100 cousins I have) she is being so horrible to everyone especially the ones who live by her calling them down so badly when she shouldn't even be talking...has the whole family in angry, hurt and frustrated.