20-8-2009 - 37 Week prenatal update...baby still breech

My mood while writing this blog: worried

Well just like I figured baby is still breech. The doctor said I could do what I want but recommended he try to turn the baby and he said he would not have a problem deliverying a breech baby also because they could always do a c-section if he didn't come out smoothly. I agreed trying to feel like I trust that everything will turn out okay but I have a really, really bad feeling about it and I can't get used to the idea.

Turning baby:
Situation #1 - Doctor goes inside and tries to turn baby around it is a sucess and then baby is delievered natually like I would like.

Situation #2 - Doctor goes inside and tries to turn baby which will be very painful and may require drugs if I can't handle it, it doesn't work maybe the cord is around the baby's neck or wrapped around the body and baby has to be delivered then and there by emergency c-section...any amount of time without air in the babies lungs could be fatal and that is a very scary thought.

C-section:
Situation #1 - An appointment is made and I go in a have baby knowing what to expect and no pain involved

Situation #2 - An appointment is made and the baby decides to turn around last minute and I have a natural birth with normal labor pain involved.

The doctor didn't tell me to think about what I wanted to do he just told me he would call me on Monday and make an appointment to turn baby...but as every minute goes by I really don't like the idea and would prefer to do a c-section and so I am waiting to talk to Kris and see if he agrees with me.

That dream I had last week about my cousin Jennifer someone I have never trusted came back into my head...the one where she was screaming at me and being mean to me and kicking me in the stomach and I was bleeding and losing my baby and I was saying to her that stop it, stop it I am losing my baby now because of you, whats wrong with you crazy B***h, I hate you etc etc I remember feeling so good finally saying it to her face becaus I have never been mean back at her but it didn't help the fact that I was losing my baby because of her untrusting backstabing, heartless ways...maybe this means that because I don't trust that things are going to turn out smoothly by trying to turn baby that I shouldn't do it...I know this is weird but I have had dreams come true often either as I dream it or I have to figure out what our dream is trying to tell me...I had this dream before I found out the baby was breech.

UPDATE: Talked to hubby a few minutes ago and he totally agrees with me about getting a c-section instead of trying to turn the baby around...so I am gonna call my doctor and tell him that tomorrow.