08-1-2009 - 5 Weeks Preggo

My mood while writing this blog: Ehhh

So I am now in my 5th week of pregnancy and enduring every pregnancy symptom that I can possibly imagine. I have gas, nausea, soar nipples, fatigue and mood swings. I have to say that the one I dislike the most is the mood swings. I don't mind all the other symptoms because they kinda let me know that I am pregnant, but the mood swings are turning out to be a pain in the butt. I find myself crying for absolutely no reason. My husband will just ask how I'm feeling and *BAM* I'm crying. My son will come up to me and say "I wub you Mommy" and *BAM* I'm crying. It's really ridiculous.

Oh and my husband has been really pissing me off. I usually don't get mad at him. I always try not to sweat the small things in life, but any little negative thing and I'm just heated. Like earlier today.

My 4 year old goes to preschool and I take him at 12 so he can play at recess before he goes into class at 12:15. So today I was feeling pretty nauseas and was having major fatigue issues. I seriously felt like any minute I could go running to the bathroom, and everything was just tasting so nasty to me. I was barely able to eat anything all day long. So I figured today being my DH's day off that him seeing me feeling so sick that he would get our son ready for school and take him. He already does it half the time as it is, so I figured since I'm really not feeling all that well, he will do it today. I was wrong.

At 11:50 my husband comes into our room where I was laying down and basically wakes me up and tells me its time to wake up and to get Rey ready for school. I was mad. Not only was it visible that I wasn't feeling well, but I also had mentioned it a few times, like when I couldn't eat or when I was hunched over the toilet. So why couldn't he just do it. All that he was doing was searching the web for a truck jack so he can put his new tires on our truck. He could have left it for 15 mins. to get Rey ready and take him. BUT NOOOOO!!!! So I got up, flashed him that look of "you are on my sh*t list" and proceeded to get my son ready and myself for that matter. Once we were both ready I went out to the living room and put on my sweater to leave and you know what my husband said, this is what really pissed me off, "What are you doing? I was going to take Rey to school, since your acting sick." I got soo mad and kinda went off on him a little. Telling him how dare he say I was acting, I really was sick, and I wish he could only feel what exactly I was going through, and blah blah blah. I really didn't let him get any words in but he did manage to say that he didn't mean it like that he was just trying to say that since I was sick he was going to take Rey. I didn't care I was mad. I just reminded him that he needed to start watching what he said cause one little word will piss me off, and on will come the mood swings. I know it has a lot to do with my hormones and what not, but I hate being a total b*tch to my husband like that. He really is a wonderful man. He does so much for my boys and me, and I just don't like getting all pissy in the first place.

So there you have it. I hate my mood swings. I know I still have a very long path ahead of me but I'm hoping that these mood swings are only a big part of the first trimester when the hormones are at full force getting everything ready for my little ones journey in my womb. I guess that was really all I wanted to get out for now. Even though I'm pretty sure my DH was just being his normal self and wanting to help me out with taking Rey to school, I still don't like how he said it. I did not like it at all.

So now I am just waiting for the 27th to go to my first OB appointment. I'll be around 8 weeks and I'm pretty sure he will do an ultrasound so I'm super excited about that. I just want to see that my baby is growing and with a healthy heart beat. So everyone send me beautiful, healthy, happy baby vibes. As I will send you all sticky baby dust. And congrats to all new Mommies and Mommies to be.

Sorry for venting but it really was relieving in a way.