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12 Comments on I have to get this out somehow...
leesab - Thursday, 29 Jan
hi, i know what your going through, with this pregnancy i didnt start getting excited until 18 weeks. after that ultrasound got the all clear i felt so great i went and bought some baby stuff and ive not stopped.i remember feeling exactly like you, worry was always on my mind and thats to be expected i would think something is wrong if you were overly excited after all youve been through. just remember the worry and anxiety will go away and you will start to be excited... and trust me you will. ive got you in my prayers every night and i know one day i will read a blog from you about how happy and overly excited you are!!! best wishes for you are always coming from me!!
WilsonBaby - Tuesday, 27 Jan
I know exactly how you feel. I had a miscarriage about 2 years ago and i constantly find myself so worried about this pregnancy. this is my first baby and i am holding myself back from being happy due to the past. i went to my appt when i was 7wk 5d and we couldn't here a heart beat.. you can only imagine that heart dropping feeling that i had.. I was devasted, but the Dr. said it was totally normal.. I think i am kind of setting myself up for the worst. My next appt is Feb 2 for the sonogram. I will see how it goes.. Good bless and and let me know how it went..
God Bless
mom of 7 and 1 on the way - Tuesday, 27 Jan
I know how you feel I have had 2 miscarriages but also have 6 healthy little ones. I have had no m/s at all with this pregnancy, which has made me very nervous. But I have a appointment on Feb 3 and will be able to see my little one again, Then i will feel better.
MzChevious - Monday, 26 Jan
I hear ya!
I think what you are feeling is NORMAL and don't feel bad about including your thoughts with your Hubby. I too am plagued with this thoughts mainly due to my age (40) and also the worry of birth defects is driving me insane!!!! I feel better today as I had my 1st ante natal yesterday and got to see my little bean's HB and it was nice and strong, but I too check after every toilet visit, every twinge or cramp I over analyze to the point of deep paranoia.
I know it's easier said then done, but what is meant to be...will be, try to relax, the stress will not be doing you or the baby any good. I swear, every pregnancy I get just a few more Grey hairs to add to my collection!!
Good luck with your appointment, and please, pop back and let us know how you got on :) xox
rooey - Monday, 26 Jan
Sweetie, I know where you are coming from too! Can you read minds lol!
I am sure this will be just fine, and you will have a happy healthy baby. Stay positive, and I know that can be very hard, but its the best for you and baby.
We are all with you. Good luck for your appointment. Lots and Lots of baby dust coming your way.
xxxx
happyinvention - Monday, 26 Jan
oh, and for the record i still check for blood in the bathroom- lol. it's just a nervous tick that i can't get rid of him. although now it would be more for preterm labor than anything. maybe it's a good habit :)
happyinvention - Monday, 26 Jan
most pregnancies turn out just fine- and you are experiencing all the right things. the nightmares are just your bodies way of expelling the bad energy that you might not be dealing with in real life.
after we lost our first baby last year at 22 weeks it was hard for me to get used to the idea of having a healthy baby. we had to wait until 15 weeks for our level II ultrasound before i would let myself feel relieved! i *never* worried though- that is more stressful for the baby. what will be, will be.
look at me now! 25 weeks preggy and counting :) with our healthy little girl! good luck!!
shesxchaotic - Monday, 26 Jan
Oh I'm so sorry. I haven't lost a baby but I could see why you would feel that way. I'm sure your appointment will go well and I'll keep you and your baby in my thoughts and hoping all goes well for you. Good luck!!
momagainaft16years - Monday, 26 Jan
Oh honey, I know how you feel. I lost one in May and another this past August. I am now pregnant again and I felt the same, still do. I worry if I get close, and something bad happens, it's a big letdown for us. I take one day at a time. My doc told me that the statistics say EVERY woman has a 1 in 3 chance of m/c anyway. Doesn't matter if they ever have had one, or have had 3,4,5 m/c. Same statistic. It's just nature's way of saying, "oops, sorry. Something was wrong and we have to start over." Nature does that. Now, it seems you have a great chance of carrying to term. If you have symptoms, that 's great. I know I felt 100% better once I saw the u/s with the heartbeat. That makes your chance of m/c diminish once they see it. Try not to stress yourself out too much. Just visualize a happy, healthy baby in your arms. Breathe, sleep and know that you are providing a safe environment for your baby. It'll be ok. We're praying for you.
Beauti - Monday, 26 Jan
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I know exactly how you felt because, I too have lost babies, and NOW being 40 weeks have just started to relax. I will kid you NOT it will take a while because, you have experienced a loss, so I believe that it's natural! I do not believe that you have to apologize for how you feel! How you feel is very real and natural and should be recognized! You have to PRAY and really hope for the best ALTHOUGH I know it's hard to do because like I've said I've been there, but own how you feel and don't try and hold it back because emotions sometimes can be overwhelming!! I wish you luck and I'm always around, so you can always get in touch with me!! I hope everything goes well tomorrow!! Update us!
*smoochies*
~Beauti
paulaann - Monday, 26 Jan
Hi hun,
I could have written that myself!!!
I even took another pg test this morning just to check it's not all in my mind!!!! This is my 4th baby and I'm acting like I've never done it before, my scan is on 4th Feb and I'm same as you, terrified!!!!
We'll be fine, no reason why we won;t be this time hun, we need to think positive and have faith!
Loads Love
Pxx
blee71377 - Monday, 26 Jan
Hang in there! Just keep thinking positive and trust in the Lord.
| 26-1-2009 - I have to get this out somehow... |  My mood while writing this blog:Anxious |
Ok, well I really need to get something off my chest. I have my first OB appointment on Tuesday and I'm nervous. Really, really, freaking nervous.
Only two and a half months ago I lost a pregnancy that I was super excited about. Even though I was devasted with our lose I was always told how well I dealt with the terrible situation. And I also believe I dealt with it pretty darn well myself. I've always kept in mind that even though it was a terrible situation, to be happy and grateful for my husband and two boys that I already have in my life.
The thing is, is that the miscarriage has really held me back in getting excited with my current pregnancy. No matter how much morning sickness and every other symptom I'm feeling I guess I'm just not convinced that I'm truly pregant with a healthy baby. Deep inside I'm constantly worried that I will lose my baby. I have had two nightmares where I would be bleeding profusely in the bathroom, and I would wake up so distraught and shooken to the core, it was just so horrible. I want to express my true emotions to my husband but each time I try I feel terrible. He gets this sad look on his face and the last thing I want to do is bring any sadness to him. I feel so guilty for feeling like this. I want to be excited and happy about this pregnancy but everytime I start to I am just brought back down by the thought of my miscarriage.
I hate feeling like this and the last thing I want is to do is to bring anybody down. I do have high hopes for this pregnancy, but I'm basically just waiting for Tuesday at 10 A.M. to see what happens with my u/s. Thanks for taking your time and reading this blog.
As always I send you all the best of happy, healthy vibes. Love is beautiful and Love is strong.
Mrs. Leyva
12 Comments on I have to get this out somehow...
leesab - Thursday, 29 Jan
hi, i know what your going through, with this pregnancy i didnt start getting excited until 18 weeks. after that ultrasound got the all clear i felt so great i went and bought some baby stuff and ive not stopped.i remember feeling exactly like you, worry was always on my mind and thats to be expected i would think something is wrong if you were overly excited after all youve been through. just remember the worry and anxiety will go away and you will start to be excited... and trust me you will. ive got you in my prayers every night and i know one day i will read a blog from you about how happy and overly excited you are!!! best wishes for you are always coming from me!!
WilsonBaby - Tuesday, 27 Jan
I know exactly how you feel. I had a miscarriage about 2 years ago and i constantly find myself so worried about this pregnancy. this is my first baby and i am holding myself back from being happy due to the past. i went to my appt when i was 7wk 5d and we couldn't here a heart beat.. you can only imagine that heart dropping feeling that i had.. I was devasted, but the Dr. said it was totally normal.. I think i am kind of setting myself up for the worst. My next appt is Feb 2 for the sonogram. I will see how it goes.. Good bless and and let me know how it went..
God Bless
mom of 7 and 1 on the way - Tuesday, 27 Jan
I know how you feel I have had 2 miscarriages but also have 6 healthy little ones. I have had no m/s at all with this pregnancy, which has made me very nervous. But I have a appointment on Feb 3 and will be able to see my little one again, Then i will feel better.
MzChevious - Monday, 26 Jan
I hear ya!
I think what you are feeling is NORMAL and don't feel bad about including your thoughts with your Hubby. I too am plagued with this thoughts mainly due to my age (40) and also the worry of birth defects is driving me insane!!!! I feel better today as I had my 1st ante natal yesterday and got to see my little bean's HB and it was nice and strong, but I too check after every toilet visit, every twinge or cramp I over analyze to the point of deep paranoia.
I know it's easier said then done, but what is meant to be...will be, try to relax, the stress will not be doing you or the baby any good. I swear, every pregnancy I get just a few more Grey hairs to add to my collection!!
Good luck with your appointment, and please, pop back and let us know how you got on :) xox
rooey - Monday, 26 Jan
Sweetie, I know where you are coming from too! Can you read minds lol!
I am sure this will be just fine, and you will have a happy healthy baby. Stay positive, and I know that can be very hard, but its the best for you and baby.
We are all with you. Good luck for your appointment. Lots and Lots of baby dust coming your way.
xxxx
happyinvention - Monday, 26 Jan
oh, and for the record i still check for blood in the bathroom- lol. it's just a nervous tick that i can't get rid of him. although now it would be more for preterm labor than anything. maybe it's a good habit :)
happyinvention - Monday, 26 Jan
most pregnancies turn out just fine- and you are experiencing all the right things. the nightmares are just your bodies way of expelling the bad energy that you might not be dealing with in real life.
after we lost our first baby last year at 22 weeks it was hard for me to get used to the idea of having a healthy baby. we had to wait until 15 weeks for our level II ultrasound before i would let myself feel relieved! i *never* worried though- that is more stressful for the baby. what will be, will be.
look at me now! 25 weeks preggy and counting :) with our healthy little girl! good luck!!
shesxchaotic - Monday, 26 Jan
Oh I'm so sorry. I haven't lost a baby but I could see why you would feel that way. I'm sure your appointment will go well and I'll keep you and your baby in my thoughts and hoping all goes well for you. Good luck!!
momagainaft16years - Monday, 26 Jan
Oh honey, I know how you feel. I lost one in May and another this past August. I am now pregnant again and I felt the same, still do. I worry if I get close, and something bad happens, it's a big letdown for us. I take one day at a time. My doc told me that the statistics say EVERY woman has a 1 in 3 chance of m/c anyway. Doesn't matter if they ever have had one, or have had 3,4,5 m/c. Same statistic. It's just nature's way of saying, "oops, sorry. Something was wrong and we have to start over." Nature does that. Now, it seems you have a great chance of carrying to term. If you have symptoms, that 's great. I know I felt 100% better once I saw the u/s with the heartbeat. That makes your chance of m/c diminish once they see it. Try not to stress yourself out too much. Just visualize a happy, healthy baby in your arms. Breathe, sleep and know that you are providing a safe environment for your baby. It'll be ok. We're praying for you.
Beauti - Monday, 26 Jan
MyHotComments
I know exactly how you felt because, I too have lost babies, and NOW being 40 weeks have just started to relax. I will kid you NOT it will take a while because, you have experienced a loss, so I believe that it's natural! I do not believe that you have to apologize for how you feel! How you feel is very real and natural and should be recognized! You have to PRAY and really hope for the best ALTHOUGH I know it's hard to do because like I've said I've been there, but own how you feel and don't try and hold it back because emotions sometimes can be overwhelming!! I wish you luck and I'm always around, so you can always get in touch with me!! I hope everything goes well tomorrow!! Update us!
*smoochies*
~Beauti
paulaann - Monday, 26 Jan
Hi hun,
I could have written that myself!!!
I even took another pg test this morning just to check it's not all in my mind!!!! This is my 4th baby and I'm acting like I've never done it before, my scan is on 4th Feb and I'm same as you, terrified!!!!
We'll be fine, no reason why we won;t be this time hun, we need to think positive and have faith!
Loads Love
Pxx
blee71377 - Monday, 26 Jan
Hang in there! Just keep thinking positive and trust in the Lord.
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