21-2-2009 - Sooo Sad.

My mood while writing this blog: A Little Distraught

Let me start off with I'm fine. Nothing negative about baby or me. At least I'm still hoping all is very well.

Ok the thing that has me really down and sad is that my awesome parakeet "Big" has just died....in my hands. I don't know what happened. He was perfectly fine yesterday. He was playing and singing and everything. I'm thinking maybe, just maybe one of the kids that came over yesterday might have put something in the cage. There was this little girl who was just hanging around the cage the whole time. I don't know. I really don't care what happened. All I know is that I'm going to miss him.

He was the perfect little parakeet. Everyday I would let him and Aiden (our other parakeet) out of their cage for 2-3 hours. Aiden would just chill on top of the cage but big would fly all over and either go into the boys room and sit ontop of their curtain rod and watch them, or sit on my son Rey's shoulder, or even sit ontop of a truck that Rey has. He loved mexican music and would dance when I had it on while cleaning and would join the boys in signing the theme song to That 70's Show. And whenever somebody was over here when he was out of his cage, that he didn't like he would flyby right next to their head and clip them with a wing.

I called my husband to let him know that I found him in the corner of the cage breathing hard and took him out and he died in my hands. My husband just said he was sorry and blah blah blah. That we would go into town and buy two more if I wanted. But its not the same! I've had 4 other parakeet in my life and he was the only one who got really comfortable with the kids. I'm so totally bummed.

Well besides that I guess everything is fine. I guess I still won't feel okay with the pregnant until I hear the heartbeat on the doppler machine. That still wont be until March 5th. I'm very positive and happy about the pregnancy but wont be able to believe that it is legit until I hear the heartbeat. My nausea is fading away thank gosh. But it comes and goes like every other day. I can also feel a ball right in my pelvis area when I lay on my tummy. Its actually getting a little uncomfortable to lay on my stomach which is weird cause I never felt like that until I was around 6-7 months pregnant with my other two. And when I wake up in the morning I feel like I have all the energy in the world and move around to get a lot of things done but by 12 I'm dead tired and can't keep my eyes open for a min longer.

So in an attempt to finally get my body in motion again I planned a trip to the park with my boys and two of their cousin's. I'm hoping to keep them out there for around 2 hours. I have a lot to do around the house but really need to get the boys out to the park since the weather is no longer wet, and perfect for them to go out and play.