17-10-2008 - My first blog

My mood while writing this blog: kinda sleepy

Ok so im bored. Thought i would write a blog to explain who i am and whats going on with me. Trust me it will be boring LOL.

Well im amanda, i have always been a free spirit so to speak. Im not one of those women who dreamed of being a housewife since they were little girls. I dont like to cuddle and im very blunt. My husband is Jeremy. He is the girl so to speak. He has always wanted the family life and its very easy to hurt his feelings. We met through a mutual friend. I took one look at him and was turned off. So of course i wasnt the nicest person. A week later he came to a bar that we were at. After i have a few drinks in me i am a much nicer person apparently because we hit it off. he started calling my friend trying to get with me, and i kept avoiding his calls. thats how i roll lol.

After a month of the avoiding him thing, i was bored. We had arranged to hang out one day and i told him i wasnt feeling well. i had a monster toothache. he came to pick me up anyway so he could take care of me. i ended up taking pain pills and falling asleep. the next day he came home on his lunch break and said i made you a dentist appointment, im paying for it. lets go. Right at that moment i realized he is the real thing. almost immediately we were living together.

He asked me to marry him the first time about 6 months into it. We hit a few rough spots. 2 years into it, we found out i was pregnant. it was a sunday. wednesday he told me we were getting married that weekend. we laughed through the whole ceremony because i had morning sickness and we were both sure i was going to vomit.

17 weeks pregnant i woke up and thought i had peed myself. embarrassed i shot up and went to the bathroom, all i saw was red. and i felt a clot fall out. i screamed for him to get up and he thought we were running late. all i could say was look. he saw the bloody underwear and grabbed some pants and threw them to me. i dropped my contact on the floor and was crying so hard i couldnt find it. my husband of course found it and just hugged me and said calm down we have to get to the hospital. they took us into a room, got out their dopplar, and literally it took them 10 minutes to find the heartbeat. but they found it. we found out that day we were having a boy. we are naming him timothy matthew after his dad and my brother.

21 weeks pregnant i wake up again bleeding. they still cannot find a reason. at first they think its because i had a low lying placenta. they they think placental abruption. i stopped bleeding that day, 3 days later bleeding again. my doctor decides finally that i need a specialist.

First specialist appointment- bubs is fine. but my cervix is slightly short at 2.3cm. 3 weeks later its down to 1cm. finally a reason. as of tomorrow i am 28 weeks pregnant. had the steriod shots, and basically are just waiting until he makes his appearance. the doctors say hes coming early we just dont know how early.

i know everyone thinks their child is a miracle. for me its so true. in all reality i shouldnt have been able to carry him this long. the first bleeding episode they truely thought i was losing him. he's growing and beating me up daily. every kick is a blessing, and every day he stays inside is a miracle.

so thats me. lol im done boring people now