29-9-2010 - great news!!

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

so i got new news!! my son's chromozone tests for 13 and 18 came back

normal!! they still wanna test chromozone 11, so im waiting to find out

if my insurance will cover it now if not t'll be done once he's born... but

the worst of it is over im hopeing, i did find out im most likely having a

c-section becuz his stomach is to big, its twice the size it shud be so its

bigger then his head making it "virtually impossible to be delivered

vaginally" is what the doc told me... its disappointing but at this point

all my dreams about what having my first child would be like are

completely gone... they say i can breast feed but i'll have to pump it into

bottles so the hospital can feed him... i think that sounds like a bunch of

balony, but i gotta do what i gotta do, im still hoping i can at least feed

him his first meal, but i still dont know, i dont know if i'll even be able to

hold him... it's complicating and alot to go thru when i've never done any

of this b4, i still have so many questions, like is i have a c-section i wonder

if they will let my husband in the room with me while hey r doing it, i know

they do sometimes but with my son's condition i dont know if they will, n

then if he is alloud in the room i wonder if they will let my husband video

tape it, or one of the nurses even? i guss its just alot to think about when i

thought this would be completely different, i alwasy thought i'd have my

mom n my husband both with me n now im gonna have to choose one...

of corse i know my husband doesnt wann miss anything, but im 18 years

old, i dont know if im ready to do this without my mom there... its really

hard, any advice wud be muchly appreciated, keep us in your prayers

thank u all

~love comes on angels wings~