17-11-2010 - new news

My mood while writing this blog: ok

ok so i have an appointment scheduled for next week tuesday, im meeting with the speacialist and were gonna make the birth plan. im gonna have a c-section in december as close to my due date as possible. im nervous...i feel like im running out of time...

my mom has been great the whole pregnancy but it seems the closer we get to my due date the wierder she seems to be acting... it's the worst time for her to be acting this way...she has no idea how i feel...i think she is seeing it from the perspective of her grandchild n not seeing that its my son... i dont know how to explain how i feel to her or if i shud even try, i dont know if she'd understand... so my husband and my mom keep butting heads n getting me in the middle of it, they act like they hate eachother and then i get to listen to it... my husband aks about how she's a b*tch n my mom talks about how he's lazy n not mature enough and then when i stick up for him she tells me the same thing...she hasnt acted like this at all excet when she first found out n now she completely just flipped her attitude... she tried to tell my husband that when the baby is born he wont be able to say with me at the hospital, there's a housing unit for parents so that they dont have to be far from the babies, she told him he was dumb for thinking he could go with me and he has to stay here and work while im down at the hospital... i just feel like she wants to stay in control n maybe she feels like she's losing control now that im gonna be a mom? she just complains about everything all the time... i mean i have a few things to complain about but i dont surround myself with all that negativity all the time... i've been holding all this in for the last 2 weeks at least and dont want to tell friends becuz i dont want it to turn around on me later... so i decided maybe i cud get some advice from other pregnant women... so any1 who has some advice for me it's greatly appriecated... i just want this last month to last and with all the fighting it's going by so fast... im 9months this friday... it's almost over :'(