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30-6-2008 - STRESS DURING PREGNANCY!!

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WELL HELLO LADIES THIS IS MY FIRST BLOG. I NORMALLY WRITE TO MY UNBORN CHILD AND UPDATE IN THE BABY JOURNAL BUT IDID NOT WANT TO INCLUDE THIS MY CHILDS JOURNAL. WELL SATURDAY I WENT TO NYC TO MY SISTER'S GRADUATION PARTY. WE STOOD FOR A WHILE ENJOYING THE FAMILY. MY HUSBAND AND FAMILY WERE DRINKING NOW MY HUSBAND IS A TERRRIBLE DRINKER. THAT IS WHY HE DOESNT DO IT OFTEN BUT I ALLOWED HIM TO DRINK ON THAT DAY. ANYWAYS WE GOT BACK INTO JERSEY AT ABOUT 2AM WHEN HE DECIDED OUT OF THE BLUE THT HE WANTED TO SEE HIS BOYS. I WAS MAD BECAUSE IT WAS THIS SO LATE AND ALL HE WAS GOING TO DO WAS GET MORE DRUNK AND PROBABLY GET HIMSELF INTO TROUBLE. I TOLD HIM HE COULDNT GO SO HE GOT REALLY MAD AND STARTED TO ARGUE WITH ME ABOUT HIM NEVER BEING AROUND HIS BOYS ANYMORE AND THAT HIS BOYS CARE FOR HIM AND HE NEVER GETS TO SHOW THEM LOVE CUZ HES ALWAYS WITH ME. WHEN HE TOLD ME THIS IT JUST HURT ME . WE STARTED ARGUING AND I STARTED FIGHTING WITH HIM. HE TOLD ME SOME MEAN SHIT LIKE I WISH YOU MISCARRY AGAIN S I CAN MOVE ON; YOUR A BITCH, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY IM HAVING A KID WITH YOU, AND SOME OTHER HURTFUL STUFF BUT THE ONE THAT HURT ME THE MOST WAS THE ONE ABOUT THE MISCARRIAGE. ALTHOUGH MY MISCARRIAGE HAPPENED IN NOVEMBER IT STILL HURTS ME EVERYTIME I THINK OF IT. HE KNEW THE STATE OF DEPRESSION I FELL INTO AFTER LOOSING MY TWINS AND YET HE WISHED THAT I WOULD GO THROUGH THE PAIN OF LOSING A CHILD AGAIN. I WAS SO MAD I BROKE THE CHAIN I HAD GOT HIM FOR FATHERS DAY AND STABBED HIS LEG WITH A KNIFE( IT WAS OUT OF ANGER.) I WAS SO MAD THAT I FELT MY BABY KICKING ME IN A WAY TO BEG ME TO STOP MAKING HIM STRESS. I WAS SO WORRIED ABOUT MY LIL BEAN I JUST SAT DOWN AND ASKED GOD TO HELP MY CHILD. I DECIDED TO LEAVE HIM THAT NIGHT AND GO BACK TO THE BRONX, MAYBE TO FAMILY OR EVEN GET MY OWN APARTMENT AND NEVERR LET HIM SEE HIS CHILD BUT AFTER A LONG 2 AND A HALF HOUR WALK AT 3AND 4 IN THE MORNING I DECIDED TO GO BACK TO MY HOUSE. I IGNORED HIM FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT AND TILL TODAY WE DONT SPEAK.... I LOVE HIM AND I KNOW HE LOVES ME BUT RIGHT NOW THEIR'S A LOT OF TENSION IN THE AIR BETWEEN US AND I DONT KNOW WHAT'S THE BEST THING TO DO????.

4 Comments on STRESS DURING PREGNANCY!!

~NyMom - Thursday, 3 Jul
Wow that is some tense stuff hun.... he was way out of line for saying those things to you.. He should understand that pregnancy plays a huge role in making us hormonal and there is nothing we can do about it.. He was drunk and said that just to hurt you because he wanted to play with his "boys" and he probably feels so fuked up saying that to you and he doesn't know how to come out and say it... One thing you must remember is that everything you feel that baby inside is feeling and stress is not what you need right now it is not good for the womb and things can happen... Please don't stress just let things go..even if he continues to be that way remember that you have someone that will never leave you and will always need you sweetie and that person is growing in you..please don't let the devil mess with your soul don't give room for that to take place.. be easy and relax pray and know God takes care of everything.

chips - Tuesday, 1 Jul
soo sorry to hear about your troubles dear nessi!!sweetheart!
dont stress yourself to much, hormones do tend to course alot of mood changes!!
you are in my prayers and I hope you and you dh, can sort things out!!
god bless

tassy - Tuesday, 1 Jul
Hi there well i can understand wot you going through emotionally. When i was pregnant i had horrible mood swings too and had some shitty fights with my husband all the time. We fought like mad and screamed and yelled too. But its not that we mean any of those horrible things that we say. We are pregant and pregnancy does this to our mood and nature. and our hubby's find it difficult to adjust with this mood swings that we girls have. They feel we have changed and we are not the same like before, but then with time everything falls in place.... i am sure things wil get sorted out between you and your hubby soon. Just go and give him a nice tight hug and tell him how much u love him, and i am sure he'll reciprocate in the same way... Just hang in there and it wil all be well...

borimami - Monday, 30 Jun
Nena ! I can totally relate too! Last night my man came home at 3 and and the night before that at 5 am. I was really tripping.. stressed, couldnt sleep because I was worried and waiting. I trust him and all but to be honest I really have a hard time sleeping when he is not around. I was really mad because I felt disrespected. There is no reason for this! We are pregnant! A man is supposed to be supportive and be there. Dont get me wrong he has. But this time.... i wasnt playin. My man has also said some really hurtful shit too. We made up because he was beggin for me to forgive him, and promised he's not going out anymore. Hang in there... I know what you are goin through. He will come to his senses and realize the things he said. He was drunk and angry... and for some reason guys dont think about the hurtful shit they say.

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