24-7-2008 - I MISS MY ANGELS...

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

WELL MY LIL ANGELS IN HEAVEN THIS IS MOMMY... I MISS YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH. I WAS GOING TO WRITE YOUR LIL SISTER BUT I FELT AN URGE TO WRITE TO YOU'S. I HOPE YOU ARE DOING OK IN HEAVEN WHICH IM SURE YOU ARE. I MISS YOU GUYS TERRIBLY YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN ABOUT TO TURN 3 MONTHS OLD IN 2 WEEKS...OH HOW I MISS YOU I MISS YOU SO BAD... THE TIME HAS GONE VERY QUICKLY SINCE YOU GREW YOUR WINGS AND AS U PROBABLY KNOW I HAVE YOUR LIL SISTER GROWING WITHIN ME... THIS PREGNANCY HAS BEEN A ROLLER COASTER OF UP'S AND DOWNS BECAUSE MY ANXIETY ALWAYS GETS THE BEST OUT OF ME BUT I KNOW THAT YOU ARE PROTECTING YOUR LIL SISTER FROM UP IN HEAVEN. I HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES MY ANGELS JUST THINKING BACK TO THE DAY I HAD TO SAY BYE TO YOU'S IT WAS TO EARLY AND I WASNT READY TO SAY BYE.... WITH THIS PREGNANCY EVERYONE ASSK'S ME "IS THIS GOING TO BE YOUR FIRST BABY" I HATE HEARING THAT QUESTION BECAUSE I WANT TO TELL THEM NO BUT IN REALITY ITS GOING TO BE MY FIRST LIVING BABY(GOD WILLING) ITS SO HARD BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE PEOPLE HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU PRECIOUS ANGELS WHEN IN REALITY I THNK EVERRYONE SHOULD REMEBER YOU... MY FAMILY IS SO CAUGHT UP WITH THE EMPENDING BIRTH OF YOUR SISTER THAT THEY SEEM TO HAVE FORGOTTEN.... MY ANGEL BABIES SOMETIMES I JUST THINK ABOUT THE WWHAT WOULD HAVE BEEN'S WOULD HAVE I BEEN A GOOD MOM....ALL OF THIS SCARES ME WITH THE BIRTH OF YOUR SISTER AROUND THE CORNER, YOUR SISTER IS GOING TO GROW UP KNOWING THAT SHE HAS AN OLDER BROTHER AND SISTER IN HEAVEN.... MY ANGELS WISH I COULD SEE YOU AND HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS BUT I KNOW THAT WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE AND EVERY DAY I LIVE THAT YOU ARE RIGHT BESSIDE ME, KISSING ME AND HOLDING ME.... I LOVE YOU MY BABIES AND I KNOW SOMEDAY GOD WILL ALLOW ME TO FINALLY MEET YOU'S....

God bless your angels hun.