Write a new blog
| 11-9-2009 - 29 week appt!! |
My mood while writing this blog: nervous |
Well i went to the doctors yesterday and the boys are doing great!!! a little too great one is weighing in @ 3 lbs and a few oz. (31 w 3d) and the other is 2 lbs 15 oz! (29w 2d)the doc said one is ahead and one is right on track! I was so worried about having large babies (i was10lbs. the dad 11lbs) and im guessing thats what they are going to be! But id rather them healthy than very tiny! :)
The doctor also said he wants me to go on leave after my next appt.!!!! He said so the babies can go as full term as possible. That freaked me out so in 2 weeks he wants me to go on leave. I dont get paid exactly the best at work so im worried i wont be having money. And i guess on leave you dont get your full pay which i didnt know (its my 1st time :)) I have felt worried and stressed since he told me that. I think i can work a little longer than that so i am going to talk to him more about it. I think i am stressed too because im still not too clear on how maternity leave, family leave, disability all work! im so confused : /....I'm also worrying about having them and if i will be a good mom or be able to handle two little ones. So many things run through my mind i know God has it all covered i just wish i felt some kind of ease knowing for sure it will all be ok.
Daddy has been back in the picture and seems to be trying. Im still very skeptical as to his intentions and he still does little things that make me think he's not completely in this for the long haul. For instance i told him to go to my appt. with me if they let him out of work early. Well he got off early because he fell of his motorcycle the night before and was in pain (just hurt his wrist that was already messed up) soi call him @3 and he said he's really tired & in pain which i understood. Well come 9 o'clock i text him and he went to bike night with his friends????!!!!! I let him know that his priorities are still not in order. He said sorry.He swears he's going to continue working on it and stuff but he has just let me down so much these past months. so we will see
3 Comments on 29 week appt!!masonnickey -
Friday, 11 Sep I'm glad your boys are doing well and sound like the are going to be big boys! You have to find out from disability whats the percentage you will get paid. Also do you know if your having them natural or Csection? Good luck mama! CarrMommyof2 -
Friday, 11 Sep glad to hear baby's are doing well. i swear mine's probably over 3 lbs lol. he's so big. i feel so big. & he's so strong!! I can't wait to see him at my 36 week scan. it seems so far away. but i'm sure you'll be a great mother. your instincts will kick in instantly & you'll know exactly what to do & you will be amazing. my first was at 17 & i had no clue what i was doing but amazing it all seemed to come naturally. & with him i was still in school & everything & i didn't even have time to worry or go nuts over thinking about everything. to be honest i just remember being scared but excited. never thought about going through labor or buying stuff or anything & it all seemed to fall into place just fine. i find that when i worry more & think things over so much i tend to end up disappointed because i thought about it too much & wanted or expected too much. you just have to learn to let things go & let god take them for you. trust me it helps so much. so i'm just trying to clear my head & not think so much. lol. it's hard. but now recently i just like to stand at our changing table & look at all the baby stuff & imagine the little guy in his bassinet & all of that and it makes it easier not to think about the other things. just imagining him at home with me. and when i'm not doing that i pre occupy myself with my friends & my son & watching tv or cooking or word puzzles anything to keep my mind off of the other stuff i wanna think about. lol. as for the dad i really hope he has good intentions & i hope it all works out for you. i'm married & my hubby drives semi 5 days out of the week so when he comes home he wants to be lazy & plays video games basically his whole time home & doesn't wanna do anything. every once in awhile he helps out & is amazing but even having him around sometimes only stresses me out more. lol. so with me man or no man it's gonna be hard & i worry since he's only gonna be off work 1 week then it's 5 days a week by myself with a 3 year old & a newborn. family far away. i'm so scared & nervous but i try to think about it & try to be positive. i'm sure everything will be fine. i'm just psyching myself out. but i wish you luck with your twins. you're very lucky because i wanted twins. i think it would be amazing! you'll be great. don't worry so much. :) newmommy20 -
Friday, 11 Sep well yay!! I'm glad the boys are doing well.. i see you will have some football players on ur hands girl.. and about the maternity leave, I feel you about being overwhelmed by it.. America is one of the only developed countries where you don't get paid leave its ridiculous... I only have short term covering my for 6 wks regular birth and 8 weeks c-section.. so i really can understand the nervous feeling especially if your still not sure about ur bd's intentions.. I already know I'm doing it alone so that gets me thinking a lot... but I try to be optimistic and believe things will fall into place... But good luck hun and keep your head up and rub that belly!!!