06-4-2008 - Diary

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Hi everyone, my name is Nicole. My husband and I are expecting our 1st baby, due around Sep 11th. Last Sep I had a miscarriage, this was the hardest thing I have ever been through. I am hoping and praying I will be able to carry this baby to term. I cant wait to be a Mommy!

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January 22

I had my first ultrasound today. It was amazing we saw and heard the little heart beat, 115 BPM. The baby is only about the size of a grain of rice.

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January 25

I started spotting today and I freaked out. I went straight to the emergency room. They did a bunch of tests, and thank God everything is ok. I got to see the baby again on the ultrasound and the heartbeat was 124 BPM this time. I am so happy the baby is ok. I really need to stop freaking out but it is so hard to relax durning this critical time.

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January 28

I had a Dr. appointment today to follow up after the spotting. Well I havent had any spotting since Friday. The Dr. Said the baby is doing great. I am so happy to hear that. He did put me on bed rest for the next two weeks. It is going to be hard to not doing anything for two weeks, but all I care about right now is that the baby is safe and healthy. One thing that was kind of a bummer he pushed my due date back two days. I guess I am only 7 weeks 2 days.

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January 31

Well, I ate breakfast this morning and then spent the rest of the morning having it come back up. So I guess the morning sickness has kicked in. The funny thing is I am actually welcoming the M/S and happpy to have it. I know that might sound crazy to some, but it just reminds me that my little peanut is there. I bought one of those dopplers to hear the baby's heartbeat. I used it for the first time today. It is so amazing. I love it! It definitely puts my mind at ease.

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Feb 7

The Dr. office called and all my blood work came back perfect, although I am still waiting on the Cystic Fibrosis test. I guess that one takes longer than the others to come back. Well thank God all is good!

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Feb 25

I had my Dr. Appt. today. It went really well. Although I am a little disappointed that the Dr didnt do another U/S. He did listen to the baby's heart and it was 150BPM which the Dr said was great! My Cystic Fibrosis test came back negative, which is wonderful news. Although I feel huge I have only gained a pound. My next appointment is on March 25th. And we will have another U/S on April 14th to determine the sex....I can't wait!!! Hurry up April :o)

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March 7th

I am starting to feel so much better. Not just my morning sickness going away but my fear of losing the baby diminishes as each day passes. I am really going to be a mommy. It still doesnt feel real. I am still really tired all the time and very emotional about everything, I guess thats not going away anytime soon. So my Birthday is on Sunday and I had always planned on having my first at 25 so it looks like my plan is on track. Anyway hope all you mommys are doing great!

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March 25th

I had a Doctor appointment today. The Dr. listened to the baby's heart and it was 146 BPM. I asked him to do an ultrasound but he said since I have one in a few weeks that I shouldnt do one today. He said too much exposure to ultrasound can be bad for the baby. I had no idea, that scared me a little. They took a blood test (AFP) which was a test for common birth defects. I am so worried about the baby's health. I guess it is normal to worry. But I have this overwhelming fear for the baby's health. I find out in a week about the blood test. I hope that will put my mind at ease a little. I gained another 6 pounds thats 7 pounds total.

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