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| 08-4-2008 - Not happy | My mood while writing this blog:Ok |
I am so pregnant and sad. I havent been happy in the past couple of weeks. I sit here and my boyfriend again is not here. I asked him to come home and help me through my first trimester and its like whatever.I am tired of waiting on him to come home, Iknow he was lying about a basket ball game, he couldnt even look me in my eyes when i asked him. GOd only knows where he is. I am8 weeks and 3 days right now. I dont even think he wants the baby and after we planned the baby together. He has hurt me so much in the past month I dont even know whats the point anymore. When I need him here with me he would rather be somewhere else. Just tired as hell of this . I know when he does come he is going to be so tired and not want to talk, shit , I am going to be tired in the next few minutes. SOme times i feel like he just has fallen out of love with me. We moved here together but all the shit we have been through and now he wants to bail out. I was there for him even when he had no job.I did bitch him out alot but shit i was frustrated too. I see where this is going and I will no longer force him to be with me. He obviously doesnt want to be here and I am stressing over nothing. I am going to try my hardest to focus on me and my children cause I know I have a family that loves me. THey want me to come home to florida so bad so they can help me with the baby and my 9 yr old son, I think that might be a good start .. for me and my son and my unborn child , all i have here is stress , STRESS AND MORE STRESS.............
GOD Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cant change,
Courage to Change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the DIfference.
AMEN.
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