07-11-2009 - 12 DPO..BFN ive GOT to stop torturing myself

My mood while writing this blog: Angry/Upset..

I have got to stop doing this to myself. I am 12 DPO and it was a BFN this morning. First wee of the day. I am totally crushed! I thought after the blemish on yesterday mornings pee stick and the fact my nipples were tingling and I get waves of nausea that surely it was going to be a BFP.

I know I got a BFN yesterday on the second pee stick and I know that it could technichally be too early to tell. But I think deep down I know that my body is playing tricks on me and I am about as pregnant as a nun.

So, I Nicola Carrie Miles am going to take control again! And say no more testing until ATLEAST 14-15 DPO. BECAUSE its affecting ME, its affecting my relationship and i think just my wellbeing in general.

Im feeling so emotionally drained at the moment and sad and stupid for testing so bloody early. If im going to carry on TTC next month I AM NOT testing until 12-13 DPO for my first test...Bloody impatience!!!

Sorry for the rant girls!

xxx