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| 02-12-2008 - Trying again Dec 1 2008 |  My mood while writing this blog:relaxed |
So we are trying again. I never imagined it would be like this. I remember thinking as a child that when I grew up i would just have babies. Have them when I wanted, where I wanted and with whom I wanted. no problems, no waiting just immediate gratification.
and now I am all wrapped up in the 'trying' hoping with all my being that in a few weeks I will test and it will be positive. pregnant for Christmas. what better gift than that? I was supposed to have baby Jonathan for Christmas. He was my present...so now I am holding on to the crazy idea that if I am at least pregnant for christmas it will make facing Jonathans due date easier. and if I am not? ....I know what my chances are, I know that its unlikely that I will get it... I just wish it was what I dreamt of as a child. I want to get pregnant, so I do.
so I have been working hard to make getting pregnant easy and fast! Ovulation predictor kit - got it, preseed - got it, body temps etc - sorted, bd'ing schedule - made posted and being adhered to. trying not to stress - sorted.
20% that is not a lot... 20% chance of getting pregnant this cycle.
I keep telling myself to take better care of me so that I have a better chance...I need to exercise, eat well, drink lots of water...instead I sit around, binge eat, and feel dehydrated. the gym is right there. its one minute away. what is keeping me from going? am I trying to stop myself because I wish so badly i was still pregnant? am I just screwed up!?
i have no answers... the only thing I do know is that I am on a mission to get pregnant again.
3 Comments on Trying again Dec 1 2008
beegee - Friday, 10 Sep
So I read your blog, and I feel the same way. My baby Peter was due Dec 30th, and we lost him on Aug 20. We too are hoping that we can get pregnant in Dec to kind of celebrate the original birthdate for our angel. I'm very excited that you are pregnant again. Congrats on the new marriage and on your new little bun in the oven
mamagris - Saturday, 20 Dec
So when was your due date? Mine was Dec 21st....Getting closer and I am having a harder time as the day draws nearer and still no bfp??? Maybe we can chat this thing through-even though our stories are different in many ways.
lavish - Saturday, 6 Dec
OBS, I know how you feel my due date is getting closer and I am starting to have the same feelings if I could be pregnant by my due date. Good luck to you ,you will get it I know:).
Lavish
15-5-2011 - i finally have my baby!
22-12-2010 - half way and feeling great!
19-10-2010 - soldiering through
02-9-2010 - Back in the game
09-5-2009 - what the??? why am I bleeding!!!
23-4-2009 - a celebration none the less
07-4-2009 - Scrambling
19-3-2009 - thanks ladies
12-3-2009 - dreams
05-3-2009 - short luteal phase frustration
23-2-2009 - on the road again
12-2-2009 - when will it all fit back into place?
10-2-2009 - fixed computer! back on track! update
26-1-2009 - broken computer.. Soo broken I can't write anything!!!
20-1-2009 - Supermommyfittastic entry number 4!
16-1-2009 - getting healthy entry number 3
15-1-2009 - Story time: The AF Fairy
13-1-2009 - its a beautiful day
11-1-2009 - Supermommyfittastic entry number 3
11-1-2009 - getting healthy entry number 2!
08-1-2009 - seeing results in my mind
02-1-2009 - getting healthy entry number 1
01-1-2009 - supermommyfittastic entry number 2!
30-12-2008 - super mommyfittastic! begins
30-12-2008 - lets get physical!
29-12-2008 - Gluten - to eat it or leave it
17-12-2008 - a break through
16-12-2008 - But we tried so hard!
15-12-2008 - what will the result be?
12-12-2008 - too Obsessed to start work
07-12-2008 - My ongoing journey
02-12-2008 - Trying again Dec 1 2008
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