12-12-2008 - too Obsessed to start work

My mood while writing this blog: silly

I woke up this morning after a terrible sleepless and restless night and I am thinking.. nope I don't want to work today! I would like to spend my day comparing my early symptoms on the counting down to pregnancy website. or chatting to the amazing ladies in the trying forums. I would rather chat about my CM and AF than call another 100 people about piping and fittings and flanges, I would rather read other ladies stories and see that I am not in this alone, I would rather feel like I was worth something and helpful by saying some kind words to someone and having them do the same for me than sit here entering data that I just got from the las plumber I talked to..

man just call me Obsessivette! I wake each morning and shuv a thermometer in my mouth, then i get up and think do I feel nausious? is this a headache? was that a twinge in my belly? man I AM exhausted! and so very hopefull that I will get a BFP.. I want it sooooo bad! I just want to be pregnant for Jonathan's due date!! i don't want to still feel the empty in me when he should have..could have been 8 months along!

my christmas wish list this year:

morning sickness (I will even take the HG as long as I have the good drugs!

pains and cramps

fatigue

swollen everything

headaches

sore BB's

and a giant BFP!

lol

until then I shall obsess... I feel like Jack in the Shining... gradually going insane!

anyways this is me rambling on ...procrastinating so that I don't have to start work..lol

I shall attach my little Obsession poen here now and then go back to the forums to see what everyone has to say and then I will get out my phone and start the calls.. wahoo!

my poem:

OBSESSION

O is for when on earth will I Ovulate?!

B is for the often repeated and much needed Baby Dance

S is for the Systematic Scheduling of the Baby Dance

E is for EWCM ...need I say more?

S is for Slightly possibly I might be pregnant Symptoms

S is for SHOW (Soft, High, Open and Waiting for Spermies!) or for Sticking your finger in places you never thought you would stick it to figure out where and how your cervix is today

I is for IVF for those of us whose bodies are not behaving

O is the sound we make when we have figured out how to pee on a stick

N is for how Nice it is to come here each day and be allowed to Obsess freely!

OK enough blah blah blahing! I must go to work!!!

Happy Obsessing all!