02-1-2009 - getting healthy entry number 1

My mood while writing this blog: tired

today I have woken and done the same thing. Damnit!

so now I have to ask myself why? what is going on in my head that is making me feel like I need to stuff my face with cake. there is alot going on. this week was the week I was supposed to give birth to Jonathan. today was the final 'due date' day. do I need more time? or do I simply need to go easy on myself to start off with.. and just ease this lifestyle change into place? perhaps I simply need to make my initial goals more easily achievable. hmm..***does some thinking*** yup I think that is what I will do.

so my initial plan: week one January 2 to january 8

1. Portion sizes. I will start by reprograming my mind and body about the amount of food I eat at meals.

2. Liquid intake. I will increase my water intake this week so that I am drinking 1 litre a day by the 8th of january and 2 litres by the 20th

3. Exercise. I will go swimming first thing in the morning at least 3 days this week and do at least 1 cardio workout in the gym

4. I will not beat myself up if I have a slip up!

5. I will ensure that I do not eat more than 2 gluten units per day until I can bring myself to go without gluten entirely. (damn food allergies!)

what are my goals?

I would like to lose (ultimately) 50 pounds, realistically 30 pounds.

I would like to be able to run again. by February 1st I would like to run for at least 20 minutes on 8.2 at increment 1 without stopping.

by April 30th I would like to run for an hour without stopping

i would like to gain muscle and tone in my arms, stomach, and legs

I would like to rebuild my flexibility and improve it

I would like to lose 7 inches around my waist which will mean that I would have lost between 1-7 inches around the rest of my body

I want to feel healthy and have energy again

i want my body to be healthy so that it doesn't reject my next baby

i want to stop aching when I get out of bed

why am I doing this? what is my emotional tie?

I want to feel sexy

I want to have a body that can healthily carry my next child

I want to start living again

I want to look amazing at my wedding

I want to have the energy so that when I do have a child I can run with him/her

I want to fit back into my "skinny" clothes

I want to be more active so that I can enjoy my life

I want to avoid the agony of coeliac symptoms

I want to feel good when I wake up.. not ill

the Sabrina Complex (going to see people you haven't seen for a long while and looking sooo much more amazing than the last time they saw you)

I want control over my actions.

How am I going to do this?

I need to start slowly as there is definitely something in my mind telling me to not do it.

I will start by working on reducing my gluten and also programming my mind to eat smaller portions.

I will graze on healthy snacks throughout the day so that I don't feel I have deprived myself of anything

during the first month I will get to the gym at least 3 times a week. during the second I will increase the amount of time I spend at the gym and add one additional day

I will use a combination of cardio and weight training with a bit of yoga thrown in for fun

I work best with a buddy so will make sure that I have contact with others who are working towards similar goals

i will keep a food and exercise journal

I will start today

todays weight

an unfortunate 191.4 (not my highest weight but not a good one either)

I have not taken measurements or BMI yet.

so it is now off to the pool for me.