07-4-2009 - Scrambling

My mood while writing this blog: tired, overwhelmed

I sort of disappeared there for a while and am about to dissapear again!

first for those of you with BFP's and health pregnancies congrats and keep making good babies!

for those of you who are going through a hard time right now with a loss, or af's arrival , or an unsure result from the doctors, my thoughts are with you and I am sorry.

there were sooo many messages on my page i couldn't respond to them all so I thought I would simply give you an update here.

I finally went out and got me a real job. its real! I have to leave the house to do it! AND they won't let me wear PJ's! I am excited as it is work that I have always wanted to do. I will be working as a SEN teaching assistant and Mentor. basically my job is to help kids who are struggling in school for various reasons ranging from learning difficulties to grief, to bullying, to abuse.. anything.. my job is to just help them keep focused, work through it and make sure that they come out on top. i am very excited to actually be giving back while i work.

in other news I am going on holiday to see my family in Canada tomorrow morning. I am very excited but also preparing for a breakdown as i haven't seen them since i lost Jonathan. but it will be a very busy and good trip. in fact it will be more than busy! I have to plan my entire wedding in the 2 weeks that we are there! which is another reason you haven't seen me here lately, I have been researching and booking, venues, tents, dress shops, caterers, musicians, butterflies, flowers, cakes, I am all over it! and man am I tired now!! lol

I am not sure how well we will do this month with trying, as I should be BD'ing right now but we are both way to tired and its 1am..lol and then we will be in my sisters house and as it will be busy I don't know how much bd time we will get. I fully intend to get some tomorrow morning before the flight though!

I am sort of getting a bit disheartened with trying these days. I just wanted it so badly and I know I shouldn't give up yet, I just hate the disappointment.

what else.... well I miss you guys, I think about you all often, even if I am not here I am rooting for you. and when I get back from my holiday in a couple weeks I will work at scheduling time again to come on here.!

well I need to go and finish printing out guest lists and itineraries to take with me.

I hope you all are doing well and hope that when I get back there is lots of good news for me.

take care! HUGS and chickens all around!

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