23-4-2009 - a celebration none the less

My mood while writing this blog: sleepy

well I peed on a stick this morning and it was again a not pregnant. HOWEVER, i have to celebrate anyways because for the first time since losing Jonathan my luteal phase is at least 11 days, not 9 or 10. this makes me very very very happy!

now af is still not in sight (at present) so I am holding out! if she doesn't show in 2 days I will test again. I had spotting on dpo 6/7, and well I just feel different than usual...but then maybe thats the nice clean Canadian air I've been breathing this week..lol.

anyways I think I am going to pull an em and rip apart my test to see what it says inside and then I shall pack my bags and finish my holiday.

I am still feeling fairly guilty for not being around here lately, and also for not responding to everyone etc.. its just been a crazy month and I had some trouble watching so many ladies suffer. it hurts me a lot whenever any of you mc, or get negative results, I find myself trying to carry both your and my own pain and I had to take a break for a bit. please don't think I don't care what you are going through, I do, deeply... I just needed to regroup I guess.

anyways I am supposed to be packing and preparing for the trip home so I had better get started.

take care everyone! xx