30-9-2008 - Ultrasound

My mood while writing this blog: biting cuticle nervous

Ok... well I nearly had a heart attack and I started to cry in the office and my doc had to stop and give me a hug... She only saw a yolk sac and what looked like to be a flicker but she said it looks like a vein of mine and that she wants me to go downstairs for a second opinion.

Before she sent me down there she was telling me that she would like me to stop Lovenox bc it has a long lifespan and in order to do a d&c she would need me off of it for a week! That's when I started to boo hoo... I couldn't believe that there was nothing there...

Soooo I go downstairs and I'm an emotional wreck (mind you I went by myself) and sitting in the waiting area I had to read some magazine for rich people LOL... to make me stop worrying. (didn't work well) I then went in to the room with the tech and she was soooo NICE! She was like so Cynthia what's going on? I broke down again and shook my head, "I don't know!" Well I laid down and she started poking around(literally) and she was very quiet and I couldn't see a thing. I'm just lying there waiting. She tried a bunch of times to try and hear the heartbeat and we actually heard it very faintly.

She then started to tell me that she definitely sees the heart beating (that lil flicker that I love to see!) and then she proceeded to tell me that by all means it is healthy!!! (so far) She said that the yolk sac looked great and the baby measured 6 weeks not 8! She checked my cervix and she said to looked great and it was closed and she saw noooo blood inside which is a good sign. Well I had a little sigh of relief. Then she looked at my left ovary and again she liked what she saw! (meanwhile I'm thinking ... I love this WOMAN! lol) She said before the placenta gives the nutrition a corpus luteum cyst does the providing in the mean time and she saw one there! All signs of a pregnancy in development!

Soooo she said to definitely hold off on the d&c and she was going to personally call my doctor. She said by next week we should definitely be able to hear a heartbeat better. Then she was like I would love to do the next u/s bc now I want to know how everything goes! She was like I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! She was just sooo pleasant and optimistic! Just what I needed!!! =)

If in the event that things don't progress then I'll know we tried to wait it out... but right now there's a tiny lil thing growing inside of me and I am not ready to give up hope yet! Now... I'm just going a lil bit backwards and only 6weeks pregnant??? weird huh? but hey they say those lil spermies can live up to a week! lol

I will definitely keep you all updated! I'm a bit scared but at the same time hopeful...

xoxo

Cyndy