06-10-2008 - Today is the Day...

My mood while writing this blog: anxious

Ok ladies... I will try to make this brief! I go today to find out if my lil munchkin is growing =) or not =...( I just wanted to say please say a quick lil prayer for me! =) I have a few symptoms of feeling pregnant which is good since if it wasn't growing then signs should be disappearing... right? So here they are: constipated (like bleeding ... sorry TMI! LOL) some cramping( so maybe I'm expanding in there??) but nooo spotting! and my boobs are itchy and sensitive and heavy as all heck!

I am really trying to stay relaxed... kind of hard when my future right now is up in the air! My due date would have been October 23 and there's nothing in the world that would help relieve some of my pain more than me being able to stay pregnant! I think about how huge I would have been right now and all the movement I would have been experiencing, but I stay strong because I have a lil one that I need to protect right now! If I lose this one too... October will officially become the worse month of the year for me! =( I'm truly hoping that won't happen... positive thoughts... positive thoughts! =)

Ok I will let you guys go for now... I'll post as soooooon as I get home! hopefully with smiles and a great picture to share with you all! =) My fingers are crossed!!!!! xoxo