11-12-2008 - Wishing and positive thinking

My mood while writing this blog: tired (work related! LOL)

Hi ladies... well I really haven't been ttc because my lovely fiance doesn't want to try so we haven't had any bding WHAT so ever!!! And on top of that I am working hard on losing this depression weight that has kept me very focused! LOL Well the good news is that I went from barely fitting into size 14's and now can get into my one pair size 10's!! but more so my 12's lol!!! Sooo anyways... here's where my wishing and positive thinking comes into play!!!

November 26 I had egg white cm... and I only took note of it to keep track for the future. Then I went out that Saturday... the 29th and drank like you wouldn't believe! LOL... went home and had a lil fun! LOL... I had to! IT's been forever!!! and honestly not thinking about ttc bc I just wanted some affection (ladies you know! LOL) So nothing since then!

Now my cycles are still out of whack so I am on CD 34 right now. I am sooo wishing that I am pregnant, thinking positively and if it was meant to be then maybe I am!!! (I am extremely fertile right now! LOL) Sooo I don't want to test. by cd 40 if nothing comes then I will... does that sound good?? My boobs itch alot and I feel like I start AF but then nothing is there... soooo who knows! What do you all think? help me and my sanity!!! lol