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16-1-2009 - Hi My friends...

My mood while writing this blog:
not sure...

Hi ladies... I've missed chatting with all of you!! So my life is pretty much the same... but 15 pounds lighter! LOL... That has been my main focus and instead of being obsessed with charting and predicting ovulation I have been at the gym sometimes even for 2 hours or more. It's my escape and I am feeling pretty good about myself.

I have my moments where I just want to cry at the top of my lungs till I get such a headache I can't take it anymore and then I feel better. Trying to conceive is pretty much at a stand still in my life and for now I guess it's ok but I really want to start practicing if you know what I mean! =)

Last night I just cried myself to sleep bc today is my birthday and I just remember being soooo happy that my goal of having a baby by the time I turned 30 was coming true and then April 25 happened... Then again sooo excited that I would be preggo and big by now and then October 9th happened. I don't know what else to do to make me not think about it. Now it's just sooo hard bc my fiance really still doesn't want to have anymore kids... we are fine if I don't bring it up, but that doesnt make me fine!

This year 4 babies will be born in his family!!! His brother is having one in April... and 3 of his sisters are due later this year (one due right after I was due) and while I am soooo excited for them... it just breaks my heart that it's not me with them!!! I really need some clarification from him... I decided that by late feb to middle of march I want to start ttc and if he refuses then I am through! time to move on if he's not willing to have a child with me...

I am waiting for my realtor to call me... a couple came to see my house and they are putting in an offer... I am extremely excited... but also nervous bc I don't think it's going to be the price I wanted... but hey its a start and looking forward to starting over!

Let's see did I cover everything??? ..... Oh yeah... CONGRATS on all of my friends here that have gotten their BFPs over the holiday season and new year!!! I am so happy for you and those of you that are due in May... I keep checking up on ya... and love to find out what you are all having that must be sooo very exciting!!!

Stay warm if you are in the U.S. especially NJ... it's FREEEEZING here today!!! LOL

xoxoxoxo

Cyndy

9 Comments on Hi My friends...

boystruckx2 - Monday, 19 Jan
Happy Birthday and Congrats on your 15 pound loss girl!!!

tassy - Sunday, 18 Jan
Hii girl, firstly A very HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you.. and secondy its soo good to hear from you again.. and great you've lost soo much weight, its really a good achievement.. and goodluck on your plans for beginning to ttc,i hope u and your guy can talk about it and come to a common ground... take care xxxx

danileigh - Saturday, 17 Jan
Hey girl! Happy Birthday! I am sorry that you are having issues with your fiance about the baby thing. I have to agree with you. If you know you want a baby, no one and nothing will be able to change your mind, and you will not be happy unless you see it through. You have to tell him that your mind is made up and hopefully he will think about it. We are all here saying our prayers for you.

metsmom - Friday, 16 Jan
Happy Birthday!! And Congrats on losing 15lbs! I know what you mean about the ttc wait....stick wth your heart but listen to your mind. Sometimes wanting the baby so badly can make us blind to the rest of our worlds. Take the time you and HE need. your time is coming honey! Bundle up! Have some fun tonight and celebrate hard! hugs

babyyags - Friday, 16 Jan
Happy Birthday! It was so good to hear an update from you! Can't wait until Feb-March when you start trying again. I'll be crossing my fingers for you! A child would truly be bless to have a mom who want him/her so badly!
take care and keep us updated!

minkymoo78 - Friday, 16 Jan
WEll done your for losing 15 lbs that is such an achievement! x

lilmissk - Friday, 16 Jan
Happy Birthday!!! Congrats on the weight loss! Good luck with selling your house. It is very cold, so you try to stay warm, too.

RainbowRach - Friday, 16 Jan
Hi hun, big congrats on loosing so much weight! that is excellent x x I am sorry you and your BF want different things. Maybe he will think about it some more when he realises how serious you are (going to leave!). I know what you mean about anniversaries and thinking what could have been. If I hadnt lost my first, they would be seven months old by now, my second would have been 2 months and my last pregnancy would have been 31 weeks along. But I guess, we have to put that to one side because it just cant happen :( I hope you have a wonderful birthday!! I wish I was 30 again x x

beckybear - Friday, 16 Jan
Hi Cyndy. Glad you are getting yourself healthy. It's really getting so difficult for me too. I just feel my age closing in on me. Look to the future and be optimistic, it's all we can do to keep our sanity. Happy Birthday! BTW, I just turned 37 last Saturday (UGH).

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