21-2-2009 - Entering Phase II

My mood while writing this blog: confused... still

It's been way toooo long! lol I just wanted to reach out to all of you and let you know that I have been coming on here more often now! Sometimes I get to comment, but most of the time I read really really quick then off to go do something else! Ok so my blog title is Entering Phase II... I don't know how many phases I will have but I feel like everytime something is ending... something always begins!

So let's see here: Tomorrow the home inspector is coming to check out the house for the buyers. So I think we are still on track with the closing for March 1st. YIKES... I am NO where near ready to move out! lol I do have a LOT packed but the house still looks 100% lived in... not good for me! I'm down a total of 24 pounds and back into my size 10 JEANS/slacks! YAY (So all of the above was part of my phase I plan! LOL)

Now I'm at a point where I KNOW my fiance does not want any kids (hopefully just for now though) so I don't even discuss it with him! Ok... let's see I am moving back to my parent's house just for a while until I figure out what the heck WE are going to do!!! He's thinking of the military now and you know what... that is fine with me! I just need to know where do I fit into this??? After he gets out of training does he want me to go live with him where ever he may be? Welll... he doesn't know yet! OK... fine with me... lol I'm just numb to many of our situations already! We are getting along pretty good now too... so now I am just a wee bit confused! I think once we move (together or not) then decisions will be made with more ease! Back to my losing weight... I still want to drop another 20 lbs which would bring me to 135 range! lol just the weight I met him 6.5 years ago! (see this is all phase II talk)

I don't know what to say or do right now... but I do know that what ever happens I will be healthy and mentally free!!! lol I'm going to Vegas in June for my friends bachelorette party so I am motivated to get my two piece in action! LOL and after I sit down and redo my bills I will give myself a deadline for moving out from my moms house! Again I have to wait and see what happens with "The Grumpy Man" lol well he's not to grumpy anymore...hmmm... let's call him the "I don't have a CLUE man!" hahaha Sooo how many phases will I be going through and for how long... NO CLUE lol... all I know is that I'm in need of a vacation! Work is NUTS and my life is CONFUSING sooo a mental break from it all would be a huge help! lol

Sorry this is sooo long! I'll try to update you guys more frequently so that I don't have to ramble on and on! Oh I posted a couple of pics... from my friend's baby shower... not the best quality bc of cropping but it'll do for now!

XOXO... keep those bellies growing!!! and my ttc'ers... your day will come... and for those in my situation... lol... don't know what to tell ya! lol hmmm... be patient! =0)