22-3-2009 - going out of my mind!

My mood while writing this blog: worried/happy

So I am at a loss on how i am supposed to fell..... I have this miracle from God in my belly still and waiting to find out if i get to keep it or not is driving me bonkers. I luckly enough have my Beautiful little Guy Logan to keep me smiling lol Yesterday he informed me he is A MAN I rotflmbo..........I Said Logan you are 2.. Your a little boy NO MOMMY I MAN......No Logan your daddy is a man you are a little boy .....NO .....daddy in RAQ help kids like me....I MAN ......How freakin cute is he .....lol (i speelled everything as he said it lol)

He also makes me feel so Proud that my husband and i have raised such a sweet little guy. When i came in from the OBGYN on Thursday he saw that i had been balling my eyes out he ran up and squeezed my legs and said mommy you cuddle me...I AM TRUELY BLESSED TO HAVE HIM IN MY LIFE. I would Love to have this baby but if god feels that this baby is not for me .....It will be hard to except however I know that God has a Bigger plan, If he should decide to have this baby go back home to the kingdom above i will try my best to remember that God knows all and has a bigger plan. AND THAT ALL THINGS HAPPEN for a reason.

please keep our family in your thoughts and prayers. I also wanted to let you all know that my mom flies in from washington state thursday morning at 11 am and i have my transV U/S at 115.