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| 28-6-2009 - Disappointing |
My mood while writing this blog: Angry, upset and then okay with myself for baby\'s sake |
Unbelievable...after 2 months of waiting for my first antenatal appointment...I get to the hospital early...wait excitedly with my girls...only to be told that I'm NOT on the list...and that I had been notified of a change to JULY 27TH!!!...I never even got a change of date letter anyway... Can you believe it??? Despite having had a missed miscarriage in December last year...and then having this totally anxious feeling of not carrying a viable pregnancy...i was really excited and looking forward to today's appointment...to finally hear baby's heartbeat after all this time...then NOTHING...the midwife tried to re-schedule me for next Monday but I leave for Sydney then..for a week...by the time I come back it will be too late as I really want to know now...anyway I stormed out of the office and told her off and then came home and made a few phone calls...I was fuming then crying....I rang my mum and cried and told her what had happened...tried to ring my GP but his line was engaged...so I rang my midwife from last year and she's going to ring me tomorrow to hopefully make an appointment for Thursday... the general manager for midwives rang shortly after that to apologise and to make another appointment but I told her to forget it and that there was no way I was going to come back and have my baby in that hospital...I'm still in shock and just can't believe that I have to keep waiting to hear my baby's heartbeat and to know that everything is okay...I'm going to look for me a doppler...and for some info re; Freebirthing in New Zealand...I'm a bit worried about my little person now as I had quite an upsetting day but want to cheer up...so might go to the movies tonight with the family...how frustrating...According to my dates I'm approx.16 weeks tomorrow...
1 Comments on Disappointingsirat -
Monday, 29 Jun dont worry hon...things will be fine...I can so understand your frustration...you should've kicked her ass before leaving!!