10-2-2009 - oh so tired!

My mood while writing this blog: exhausted

i have never, felt this tired before!! with my son, i cant remember being this drained all the time!! i worked full time, right up until 2 days before i had him- and i still wasnt this tired. I know they say each pregnancy is different, but i never truely believed that until i started expieriencing it. Not only am i super tired, im so beyond emotional im starting to scare my husband. yesterday he got home from his dads (which is next door) and he smelled like the propane heater he has in his garage, and i almost threw up when he hugged me. i told him he smelled... not being mean, but just letting him know that he needed to get away from me. it upset him- because he didnt understand why i would be so blunt about it and i BUSTED out crying. i didnt even feel it coming on-- it just came out. And once i noticed myself crying, i started crying even harder. it was crazy!!! when i finally stopped, i looked up at him and he looked so scared, and then i couldnt stop laughing. i feel like my body is playing tricks on me! i was never like this last time, so this is all so new to me.

My headaches have been coming back- not as bad as last time, which is good- but i was hoping i wasnt going to get them at all. Theyre really bad migraines that make me have tunnel vision- its horrible. if i stare at something, everything else around it dissapears. the only thing that makes them go away, is going to bed right away and sleeping it off- thankfully ive only gotten them when my husband has been home and he can take Charlie and let me go to bed. Ive noticed that drinking tons of water during the day seems to be helping- the days i get them, i havent drank as much as i usually do.

And, my last thing.. my dreams.. feel so real. i had a dream last night, that i had triplets. 2 girls and a boy. i woke up feeling like it was so real, that it was scary. i know its beyond crazy to even happen... but every single night, all my dreams have been about babies. always more than one. i have no twins at all on my side of the family, i think my husband has a set somewhere..... its just so wierd to have these dreams, because ive never had them before. With charlie- i always had dreams about little boys.. i just knew we were having a boy.. this time around, its always mulitple girls, last night, first time there was a boy in the dream. we'll have to wait and see. my first ultrasound isnt until march-- which seems like an eternity away.

My husband and i have decided to go away on vacation one last time, before our baby gets here. I'm getting very excited for getting away for a week and having it just be us before our family gets bigger. We're going to Myrtle Beach in June- so i have that to look foward to, and the birth of our baby =o)

i hope all you ladies are having a wonderful pregnancy so far =o)

Amber