06-10-2009 - 19 weeks 6 days

My mood while writing this blog: excited

afternoon ladies =o)

I'm getting really excited for my appointment tomorrow! At 2:10 pm, we go for my 20 week ultrasound! =o) it seems like its taken FOREVER to get here! i was pregnant at the beginning of the year, but lost that baby in march and then got pregnant again at the beginning of june.. so i feel like ive been pregnant since January!

My due date for the last baby was last week.. and while it was so very sad- it made me so thankful that i have this baby growing inside me.

The past few weeks have flown by for me. There has been so much heartache in my life lately. My best friends grandfather, finally lost his 10 year battle with cancer 2 weeks ago. He was like a grandfather to me.. so it was very hard on me. I tried so hard to be strong for my friend, Marissa.. but it was so hard at times. Not a week later, my other friend, Amy- whom ive been friends with since we were 5... told me her mom was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. She just had both breasts removed yesterday- and the outlook is very good. They said the cancer hasnt spread anywhere else and she has a really good chance of being cancer free after all is said and done. I just feel like everyone is going through so much all around me.. it scares me to see what else is to come.

I still havent felt crazy movement with the baby at all.. just every now and then, if im sitting a certain way or laying flat on my back. My stomach is definately getting bigger, my uterus is about an inch above my belly button.. its just so crazy to see the difference from last week. When i was pregnant with my son, my stomach didnt get big at all.. infact- you could hardly even tell i was pregnant ( other than looking at a scale!! i gained about 45 pounds) I feel bigger now, than i did at 9 months pregnant with Charlie. As of 2 weeks ago, i have only gained about 5 pounds since i found out i was pregnant..which i think is good for me, i cannot afford to gain alot of weight again this time around.

Everyone i know keeps asking what i think we're having- and truth be told- i have NO idea. i dont have a clue or any type of feeling as to what we're having. With Charlie, i knew the second we got pregnant he was going to be a boy. My husband swears this time around we're having a girl.. but i just couldnt tell you! Honestly, i couldnt care either way. I feel so blessed that I'm able to get pregnant and carry babies,that it doesnt matter to me what sex the baby is. I just want the baby to be healthy. =o) I think thats it for now.. my updated life for the past few weeks. I will write a blog tomorrow to let you all know about our u/s. Pray for a healthy baby =o)

xoxoxo

Amber and Baby