16-3-2010 - 17 weeks

My mood while writing this blog: OK

Hey Ladies,

Wow - Week 17 - it is all happening so fast now. People are starting to notice my bump now, even though I don't think it has changed much over the last few weeks. I'll take my weekly picture tonight however, so maybe I will think differently once I have compared it to last week. I'll post it here tomorrow.

I just spoke to my local hospital and now have the date for my 20 week scan - April 8th - I'm soooo excited! It's only just over 3 weeks away and although I don't want to wish my pregnancy away, it can't come quick enough.

Yesterday was a really really tough day - my cousins funeral. I just about managed to hold myself together through the service without having to leave. And in fact I think he has actually done me some favours - the only way I could stop myself hyperventilating was to really concentrate on my breathing, taking long deep breaths - great practice for labour I was thinking!!! (Sorry if anyone sees that thought as insensitive, but I think it is important to try and find positives with these things, its the only way to try and cope with them).

Lee (my cousin) would have been so proud of his daughters, the 2 older ones (aged 14 and 16) both managed to stand during the service and read a poem - amazing courage. I thought I had done a lot of crying in the last few months what with my hormones being all over the place, but yesterday topped it, I cried enough to fill a small bath. My bump is really showing now and so became the centre of attention for the family, everyone wanting to think about the good things that are happening at the moment rather than dwelling on the bad. In memory of Lee we have decided Peanut will carry his name as a middle name, so for a boy the middle name will be Lee and for a girl it will be Leela.

Hope you ladies are all doing well. Thinking of you all, especially those TTC, I'm sending you all my baby dust and hoping it is your time very very soon

Pol & Peanut xxx