02-4-2009 - Saturday night..sooo nervous!

My mood while writing this blog: ok

Well this saturday will be the first night i have ever left Poppy overnight and shes 16 weeks old!

iv never wanted to and i still dont i want to be with her 24/7 and have not had any 'me time' yet, apart from a couple of weeks ago i had to go to a friends meal 7pm till 9pm and left her with ashley she screamed constantly and will only ever go to me on a night which im really worried about because iv never been apart from her 2 hours is the longest.

so saturday is going to be so hard everybody has said its about time i got out and im going to have to do it sometime, god i used to be out nearly every saturday night and i still havent had a drink since finding out i was pregnant! plus its my birthday in 2 weeks so i want a big night out with my friends like the old days, out till the early hours so i thought this saturday would be good for me and ashley to get out and see what shes like at my mams. i know she will be fine but im going to miss her so much i will probably end up going back to my mam and dads to sleep! haha.

i feel sick at the thought of leaving her and wont trust anyone but my mam, dad and ashley to have her.

Poppy is doing fine shes now in her own room still didnt want her to go in her own room but we needed the space in our bedroom :( shes doing fine though still sleeping the usual 10 to 12 hours. Everythings going really good just panicking about leaving her saturday! i know she will be fine though its just me been a worried mummy! hope everyone is well xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx