27-6-2008 - Pregnancy: Weeks 3 & 4

My mood while writing this blog: Blessed

CD23 UPDATE: Wednesday, June 18th

Guess what??.....................

Needless to say.... I'm ecstatic!!!!!! Words cannot be found to explain how blessed I feel at having this second chance at being a mommy.

I'm in complete & total shock at this moment to be completely honest. I've had symptoms but I thought another pregnancy too good to be true. After feeling pretty awful this past week.... I couldn't take it anymore & I broke down today and tested..... seeing those 2 lines was overwhelming. What an amazing moment. I laughed and cried and thanked God... all at once I think. :)

I'm head over heels excited! I'm nervous & scared.... but confident at the same time. I have to believe that this little one is happy & healthy and I will continue on enjoying every single minute of this new pregnancy as if he or she is a very strong little bub. NOTHING but positive thoughts from here on out! I have 9 months of fun & anticipation ahead of me! I cannot believe this is happening.... I'm overwhelmed with bliss!

Thank you all so so so very much for your support, your sweet words, your encouragement, and your prayers. I don't know how I ever would have made it through our loss without this site. I'm so excited to be joining so many of you on the pregnancy boards!

~ some details.... My first appointment for a blood draw is on Friday. I have one again on Monday and our first ultrasound will be between 6 and 7 weeks. :)

I can't believe I'm even writing this! I'm so amazed at the wonder of all of this. I feel so blessed. I'm still rooting for all of you who are trying to concieve. Be positive, try to relax, and keep your hopes high.... and sticky sticky baby dust to us all!

* my little angel in heaven is going to have a little brother or sister to watch over!!! *

Thank you all so much for everything, xoxo~ Jamie..... and I'm PREGGIE belly again!!!

CD 24: 3 weeks 4 days (June 19th):

Took another test this morning and it was also POSITIVE!! :) My husband and I are so excited! I'm still trying to let all of this sink in... it's amazing!

June 20th (3w 5d):

I have my first blood draw today to see where my hcg & progesterone levels are.... and then I have another one on Monday. I'm looking forward to seeing where those stand on Tuesday morning. We'll know then if everything is progressing like it should. I may also be put on some progesterone suppositories as well.... if my progesterone levels are borderline or low. We'll see..... I have a great feeling that everything is exactly as it should be because this little bub is making me hungry, tired, and emotional! Positive thoughts are abounding.... I'm so thankful and positive about this little one. Things are going perfectly so far & he or she is already loved so much. Counting down the days until that first ultrasound.... I can't wait to see the little bub's heartbeat. All will be so well then & my nervousness will be at ease. :) Only 3 weeks from today!

June 22nd (4 weeks):

4 weeks!! That doesn't seem like a very long time.... but I love that it's a new week! I'm so excited about getting the levels back tomorrow to see how my body is taking to little bub. :) Hubbie and I walked around in the baby store yesterday and looked at some clothes & toys..... I can't wait to start shopping again! We're looking forward to the ultrasound so that we can start telling family! If anyone has any good ideas on how to go about telling them... please pass them on. :) My bbs are not quite as sore as they have been which is making me very nervous but my gums are extremely sensitive and I'm exhausted all the time. I've taken naps everyday for the past several days. I was due to start af today and obviously she was a no show. :) I had a digital test left and we took it just for fun this evening~ another bfp! So exciting to see it on the digital test~ when "pregnant" popped up I was so excited you would have thought that it was the first test I took! I had Zach hold it up so that I could take some pictures of it before the battery ran out.

Okay.... I'll be on to post tomorrow about the first results......

June 23rd (4w 1d):

Getting ready to go in for my second lab draw this morning.... and I'm hoping that while I'm there they can give me the results from the first one. I have had a terrible toothache all weekend because it seems that one of my wisdom teeth is growing right up through my gums. It's been pushing through for months and just starting hurting on Friday. When I called the dentist.... they said it could very well be due to the pregnancy because sensitive gums is a pregnancy symptom.

Either way... I may have to have it extracted today! I'm not looking forward to that.... :( I have a very busy week ahead and it seems that I'll be spending it in some pain. Whatever I have to do for little bub though.... I can't complain if this is because of pregnancy hormones. Well.... I'll be updating later regarding the results! Keep fingers crossed for record high numbers. :)

UPDATE: just got home from the doc's office to have that second blood test done. A good friend of mine works there and she checked my levels for me from last Friday. She wasn't able to tell me the exact numbers because of confidentiality reasons but she said that "They're on the high end of things!!!!" I'm so excited!! I should recieve a phone call by 1 pm today to find out what the exact #'s are! Yeaaa! Little bub is growing strong! I knew it!

June 24th (4w 2d):

Feeling pretty cruddy today..... but I'm not complaining. I'm glad that little bub is reminding me that he or she is there. :) I just wish my wisdom tooth would stop hurting. I think I'm finally going to break down and go have it cut out today...... :( yuck. I have so much to do this week. I really don't want to be on pain medication either. Oh well..... sacrifices for the little one I guess.... and I'm okay with that. I'm anxiously awaiting my 2nd results today. They're supposed to call this afternoon with them. I'm so happy that everything from the first test is so wonderful! Way to go baby!

Update: Everything is wonderful.... first results came back high.... second results came back high! I'm so proud of our little one! I just hope everything stays just as it should. I'm so incredibly thankful for this opportunity. It's very difficult not to get overly excited when I see that bub is doing so good because part of me is still a bit nervous. I just don't want to be completely devastated again. But I have faith that God is aware of that and I'm sure that my little insecurities now and then will vanish with time. I can't wait until that first ultrasound! We're really counting down the days now that we know everything is right on track now! :) Thank you so much everyone for all of your prayers. God's heard them and they've been answered!

June 24th (4w 3d):

Having a bit of a rough day. My toothache is still here.... I have an appointment with the dentist tomorrow morning. I'm sooooo exhausted! This little bub is making me so tired. I went to bed at 10 last night and woke up at 9 this morning and I'm still tired! I want to lay down and take a nap so badly but I have a test this afternoon that I have to study for.

I'm also overly anxious today. I'm worried about bub. I'm wondering if I should switch doctors because the nurse at my doctors office is not very sensitive to my concerns. I have a lot of questions and concerns because of my last pregnancy.... and she acts like I have no reason to worry. I know that my levels look really great & that little bub is okay right now~ but I'm so afraid that something could go wrong. I had asked the doctor at my miscarriage follow up appointment if he would put me on progesterone with my next pregnancy just to be sure that my progesterone levels were not the problem and he said that he would do anything I wanted him to do to ease my mind. I asked the nurse about it the other day and she said, "That isn't going to help. Everything looks good so far." I know that she deals with miscarriages on a daily basis so they may not seem like a big deal to her but this is a big deal to me. I don't want to lose my baby again and they are not doing anything to help me prevent it.

I'm faithful that God wouldn't allow for that to happen but at the same time.... I need to be pro-active. I can't just sit back and put the life of my little one in the hands of some nurse who thinks I'm just a worry wart.

I'm going to be praying so much in these next few weeks. Only God knows how bub is progressing and only He knows how this will turn out. I have to trust in Him and do all that I can in the mean time to keep this baby safe & healthy.

If that means transferring to a different office who will take my concerns more seriously.... and help reassure me that everything is okay... then that's what I have to do. I know that all of this anxiety I'm experiencing is not good for bub.

June 26th (4 w 4 d):

Almost 5 weeks already! Time really is starting to move quickly I think. But not quickly enough! Still 22 days until that ultrasound. I talked to the nurse at the doctors office yesterday and explained to her why I was concerned. We had a long conversation and she seemed like she understood me better... so that was nice. She scheduled my ultrasound for July 18th (7 weeks 5 days) and she told me to call if I have any questions or concerns. So all is looking good! Now if I could just push these sad thoughts out of my head as they come.... I'll be in good shape! Little bub is doing wonderfully in there! I have nothing to complain about! :)

June 27th (4 w 5 d):

I went to the dentist yesterday and they told me that I have to have surgery to have my wisdom tooth extracted next Monday. They've put on me on antibiotics in the mean time becuase it's infected and they also have me on pain medication. They've assured me that it's all safe during my pregnancy but it still makes me nervous so they're doing another set of levels on Tuesday, the day after my surgery, just to ease my mind.

I started feeling pretty sick last night about an hour before bed. My stomach ached, I had terrible hiccups, and I was nauseous. Bring on the morning sickness! :) I'll take it if bub is healthy! Whatever it takes to keep those levels going up & keep our baby growing strong!