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02-7-2008 - MOVING!!!

My mood while writing this blog: STRESSED

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Ok so were suppose to be moving like July 9th and i dont want to I know it would be the best thing for my family but i dont want to move its driving me crazy... see we moved to Colorado from Fla 2 1/2 years ago with my parents and brother living here and now i have friends and love the kids schools and granite we have had it really rough since we moved here thinking when we left fla that it was cheaper until like a year later then prices sky rocketed and now we cant afford to buy a home out here so needless to say my hubbie wants us to move to Ky which is where his mom and most of his siblings live he swears it has nothing to do with them why he wants us to move their he is like pick another state in the south and we will move their... I dont really know what my issues are cuz i know we can buy a home their and thats what i truely want I am so tired of renting and not having that American Dream per say... its almost like i dont care anymore I know we need to leave but i dont want to I will have like 10 weeks by the time of the move to find a doc change my medicade and not to mention we have no place to stay once we get their nor a job which is very scarse... he is like it all worked when we moved to Colorado yeah we lived in a hotel for a month before we got into a home this time we wont have the money to even think of doing that... I dont know I think im just finally settled and dont wanna leave... oh i almost forgot me and his family have never gotten along like over the phone is one thing but in person its like they really piss me off and try to telll me how to raise my kids and step son they really tell me how to raise him... dont get me wrong i dont get along with my parents either but they have always been in my kids life since day one his family has disowned us like 4 times so my oldest is 6 1/2 they didnt see him until he was a yr then saw him for like a week another 2yrs no see cuz disowned us once more.. they never really stopped and didnt see us until aug 2005 so that was like 4 yrs later then we moved feb 06 to Colorado and its been 2 1/2 yrs with out seeing them and only phone calls that make them sound like they love me or even care about me... I dont know what to freaken do i know moveing somewhere cheaper would be our best bet i just cant help think its only because he misses them and they will stab us once we get their ... were having another baby in Sept so if we stay here until the baby is born i will not want to pull the kids out of school so that would make it next summer and so far every christmas we have had to get help majorly since we moved out here to colorado not to mention we will have a family of 7 as of sept 30th living in basicly 2 bed rooms since my parents live in the 3rd room seeing as how we cant afford to rent out here on our own rent is 975 and thats just too much for us we are also on medicade and food stamps oh an wic but my hubbie does make good money 17 an hour its just so expensive out here i dont know why im fighting the move... just had to vent i really dont think i am making any since in this since my thoughts are so jumbled right now i dont know what im really trying to say and i dont know my major point about staying here...

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2 Comments on MOVING!!!


ashleym - Sunday, 6 Jul
You could just move to Texas :) It's pretty cheap out here! Living costs are not bad. What does your hubby do? Mine is in the oil field and makes around the same. That is only a few days away huh though?

Baby3onWay - Wednesday, 2 Jul
Your point is your trying to make some sence of your life and all that happens. I understand your situation with the renting and the inlaws OH TO WELL... its hard when there are so many thoughts in your head about what to do, what not to do, thinking about the children and your families future. There nothing harder in life then being a mom that cares so much not only about day to day things with their children but also what you have to offer them in their futures and their upbringing. I do not know you personally or have not talked to you much on here... but one thing I can tell you for sure from reading your blog here is that you have a great head on your shoulders, your a great mom who thinks about all life has to bring to the table for not only you but most importantly your family. I think that with such a great interest in all these areas that somehow you will find your way. If I were you I would start looking into places you can afford in he States you think would be best, look for a job out there for you hubby, look into Dr... just research a little and see what you find before you make a finial decision. I have faith that although things seem tough (cause as a mother even the smaller things in life do) you will figure out what to do and once the ball gets rolling it will all fall into place. Vent vent away my darling.. it helps us make sence of what we are feeling, keeps us open to suggestion and makes way for constructive advise on figuring out life's most difficult obstacles.